Sinai Silence
I think I'ma die alone inside my room
- Jul 6, 2020
- 810
Hey SS peeps!
So a couple of weeks ago I met up with some high school friends who I haven't spoken to in years since they went to university. One of the topics that was brought up was about sex, what a shocker. Sharing stories and pictures that shouldn't be shared with other people, I won't go into any more about it.
One of the questions asked what was you 'body count' which was one of the questions I couldn't escape, they all answered and I was last. So I lied and answered with the next closest number to zero, just so it wouldn't be awkward and/or they wouldn't make fun of me for it. I don't care about being a virgin myself but it just gets exhausting from people who know and wont stfu about it.
So I have been considering the option of hiring an escort before I ctb and there's a few reasons for this; firstly just to say I have so people will leave me the f*ck alone about it, no one should be shamed for being a virgin but it happens all too often. Secondly I have tried a bunch of different dating apps but never got anything out of them, I never knew what I wanted from them and my social skills are next to none. Lastly to see what all the hype is about. People are always looking for the most talked about show to watch on Netflix and sex is the biggest thing since asexual reproduction.
I read a post on Reddit recently about a guy who had been single for a long time since his last relationship and hadn't had sex since, his mental health wasn't doing great during and after his last relationship. He expressed his gratitude for the sex worker and how great he felt after for just having physical contact with another person. I know it won't cure me of my mental health problems if I am to go through with it, nor do I want it to. Just got me thinking that's all.
Furthermore I would be paying for a service so I (hopefully) wont have anything to feel ashamed of from the experience. Like when I go to KFC and gorge on chicken wings like the ravenous animal I am, I don't mind that the till worker is giving me disgusted/horrified looks. All jokes aside I would want to make sure it was as safe as it can be for both me and the sex worker. Obviously there's the ethical questions behind it too; although if there's demand for something there will always be a market for it, legal or not. Whether I want to or not my opinion is that it should be legalized and given regulation to make sure that workers are in a safe environment.
Anyways nothing is set in stone yet and I would like to hear your thoughts/opinions on it. What do you guys think is the best thing for me to do and what are your thoughts on the sex industry and workers in general?
So a couple of weeks ago I met up with some high school friends who I haven't spoken to in years since they went to university. One of the topics that was brought up was about sex, what a shocker. Sharing stories and pictures that shouldn't be shared with other people, I won't go into any more about it.
One of the questions asked what was you 'body count' which was one of the questions I couldn't escape, they all answered and I was last. So I lied and answered with the next closest number to zero, just so it wouldn't be awkward and/or they wouldn't make fun of me for it. I don't care about being a virgin myself but it just gets exhausting from people who know and wont stfu about it.
So I have been considering the option of hiring an escort before I ctb and there's a few reasons for this; firstly just to say I have so people will leave me the f*ck alone about it, no one should be shamed for being a virgin but it happens all too often. Secondly I have tried a bunch of different dating apps but never got anything out of them, I never knew what I wanted from them and my social skills are next to none. Lastly to see what all the hype is about. People are always looking for the most talked about show to watch on Netflix and sex is the biggest thing since asexual reproduction.
I read a post on Reddit recently about a guy who had been single for a long time since his last relationship and hadn't had sex since, his mental health wasn't doing great during and after his last relationship. He expressed his gratitude for the sex worker and how great he felt after for just having physical contact with another person. I know it won't cure me of my mental health problems if I am to go through with it, nor do I want it to. Just got me thinking that's all.
Furthermore I would be paying for a service so I (hopefully) wont have anything to feel ashamed of from the experience. Like when I go to KFC and gorge on chicken wings like the ravenous animal I am, I don't mind that the till worker is giving me disgusted/horrified looks. All jokes aside I would want to make sure it was as safe as it can be for both me and the sex worker. Obviously there's the ethical questions behind it too; although if there's demand for something there will always be a market for it, legal or not. Whether I want to or not my opinion is that it should be legalized and given regulation to make sure that workers are in a safe environment.
Anyways nothing is set in stone yet and I would like to hear your thoughts/opinions on it. What do you guys think is the best thing for me to do and what are your thoughts on the sex industry and workers in general?