Venting Useless doctors and medication withdrawal

[Rainork]

Sorry, I really need to vent this because I'm mad and also in withdrawal, so I'm a mad mess.
I'm on a couple of medications, for this story the only one affecting me is Sertraline, a decent dose daily.
I went to the pharmacy a few days ago to pick up my prescription only to be told it wasn't there and in fact wasn't on the system at all- at first I thought it was due to backlog over the bank holiday weekend (I'm in the UK), but no, it turns out my doctors have removed me from the books without even sending an email to inform me of it happening.
So, left without any of my Sertraline, I resort to calling 111 (the non emergency line here) to try and sort out an emergency prescription. When I finally get a call (at gone midnight) they say they can't access my records and need me to bring proof of my prescription to them (over an hour of driving) before 7am. By this point it's around 2-2.30am, I barely slept last night, can't afford petrol and honestly I'm in tears at the idea of having to leave the house just to prove I'm on this medication that I know they have a way of accessing remotely (as I've gotten an emergency prescription from them before for the same thing).
In the end I was mid panic attack, struggling to breathe or even stand, so I told them not to worry and that I'll just deal with the withdrawal and finished the call, I only just managed to get these words out. They responded with 'okay, take care' and that was that.
What was actually going through my mind?
After hours of walking around at night the last couple of days (withdrawal for me is mainly mental at the moment and I've been uncontrollably sobbing for hours each day) the fact that the only thing that helps me function has been taken away from me (without warning) and is now being dangled in front of me but just out of reach is agonising and the sign I was looking for to ctb. I say out if reach because every obstacle I manage to overcome is replaced with a bigger one. Leaving the house to drive is an everyday thing for many, for me at the moment it feels like running a marathon in the desert.
Honestly, even making the phone call took me more than a day of mental preparation, I just can't deal with all of this.
Sorry, as I said I needed to vent about this.
Thank you to anyone that's read to the end.

 

[Heavenbound]

I'm very sorry that you're going through this. I STRONGLY dislike GPs and haven't found a competent one yet. I don't know what kind of withdrawal you are experiencing, it's none of my business, but I have experienced withdrawal symptoms coming off of a certain antidepressant and it was horrible so I can relate in that way.

Also you are not alone in the fact that you have trouble leaving the house. I have the same problem, and I also am terrified when I have to drive. This has been going on for months. I really truly sympathize with you. It is getting a little bit easier though. I hope that it gets easier for you too.
Wishing you peace.

 

[LittleJem]

this is outrageous and you need to get more urgently. Please try an emergency call with GP, go to A&E even. Please don't let yourself go into withdrawal. Is there anyone who can support you?

 

[Rainork]

this is outrageous and you need to get more urgently. Please try an emergency call with GP, go to A&E even. Please don't let yourself go into withdrawal. Is there anyone who can support you?

I think A&E will be my next stop- I'm going to give 111 another try first and see how it goes this time.
My worry is that I don't know if anyone will be able to help me as it seemed by old GP surgery have caused my records to disappear? Hopefully if I have to try A&E, I can bring my prescription slip and get the meds without spending hours talking about wanting to ctb.
My mum and other half are both near me to support, but unfortunately there's only so much they can do.

I'm very sorry that you're going through this. I STRONGLY dislike GPs and haven't found a competent one yet. I don't know what kind of withdrawal you are experiencing, it's none of my business, but I have experienced withdrawal symptoms coming off of a certain antidepressant and it was horrible so I can relate in that way.

Also you are not alone in the fact that you have trouble leaving the house. I have the same problem, and I also am terrified when I have to drive. This has been going on for months. I really truly sympathize with you. It is getting a little bit easier though. I hope that it gets easier for you too.
Wishing you peace.

I know, they can be an absolute nightmare! Annoyingly we had a decent GP at my old surgery (just the one, but he was amazing and often had a loooong waiting list to see), but the admin crew apparently aren't great.
I kept saying to the 111 doctor yesterday'I just need my medication because I can't function to sort this out' but he didn't get it.
I'm sorry you also struggle with leaving the house, it's horrible. I'm glad it's getting easier, I hope it will here as well but I suppose time will tell.
Thank you

 

[Rainork]

So an update, over 24hrs from when I first called, I've spent most of today on the phone being met with no after no and I now give up.
I think my conclusion is 'sod the medication, fuck me and life can do one'.
There's only so many times I can repeat myself just to be told no or to try somewhere that will tell me they can't help.
A&E / out of hours GP are the only options I have left, but honestly the idea of getting dressed to trek out there when I may just get another 'we can't help you' isn't something I want to do. Bleugh.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such a horrible situation to be trapped in, it's so incredibly unfair how you have to suffer like that all through no fault of your own. But anyway I hope that if possible you eventually find relief from your situation.

 

[Rainork]

That sounds like such a horrible situation to be trapped in, it's so incredibly unfair how you have to suffer like that all through no fault of your own. But anyway I hope that if possible you eventually find relief from your situation.

Thank you<3
It has been such a struggle! I've now managed to get a weeks supply of medication, so now to try and sign up with a GP before it runs out to get more. I'm a fighter so apparently keep pushing through, we'll see how everything goes.

 

[YEAR2050]

what an awful, AWFUL thing to have to go through. thank god u managed to get meds in the end <3

 

[Rainork]

what an awful, AWFUL thing to have to go through. thank god u managed to get meds in the end <3

Thank you! It was horrible, I'm now hoping I'll manage to get things sorted before I run out again.