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rem2024
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- Jun 2, 2024
- 48
I tried to commit suicide and aborted after deciding to live June 15th and not going through with Co and tent method at state park. I spent all day Thursday/Friday in the hospital and was released later that evening. I since have been given medicine for PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, Autism, and Adult forced Sexual Exploitation, Physical abuse all confirmed.
I went to metro care service today, spent entire day there going through a case worker, and then psychiatry appoint. Had my pastor from church come with me, spent entire day with me as well and thankful to have a friend come along. Although I may be on the verge of homelessness and losing everything I have, it was nice to seek help, and not keep the suicidal idealization to my self anymore.
I don't post as much right now, but trying to exercise and get my weight back down, play some video games while I still can, look for jobs, though nothing seems to come my way. And try from there. But not giving up, and not letting these people win. I can't watch anime, and not have my own story arc to complete! I have to make it to that 200th epsidoe while the rest might be filler, i want to find my main story line.
I went to metro care service today, spent entire day there going through a case worker, and then psychiatry appoint. Had my pastor from church come with me, spent entire day with me as well and thankful to have a friend come along. Although I may be on the verge of homelessness and losing everything I have, it was nice to seek help, and not keep the suicidal idealization to my self anymore.
I don't post as much right now, but trying to exercise and get my weight back down, play some video games while I still can, look for jobs, though nothing seems to come my way. And try from there. But not giving up, and not letting these people win. I can't watch anime, and not have my own story arc to complete! I have to make it to that 200th epsidoe while the rest might be filler, i want to find my main story line.