Update about my situation...

[noname223]

I went for the jugular from my former therapist. I think she feels the pressure and currently looks for a lawyer. I think she fucked up the situation pretty hard and I think the lawyer had to be really good to make a real change. This week I have an appointment with my psychiatrist about the situation and I am very nervous...The appointment is pretty early at the morning. And that's not good. Maybe I will take a benzo beforehand. I have the feeling she sort of teams up with her...which is unfair.

The progressive woman who I had a date with didn't answer my text message. I wonder whether I should text her again. I am really not sure about her intentions. Maybe she is only playing with me.

I am invited to a birthday party of a friend this week. Not sure how this will impact my mental health. I need to stay stable.

I bought some things on the internet and it sucessfully distracts me. I notice though stimulation by academic texts are the best way to distract me from my issues. I get the feeling I have a committment to read enough texts on a daily basis to be such a smart-ass. The interesting thing though I am never a smart-ass about the things I actually read. If I have this much information on a topic I am hesitant to have a strong opinion. But I have strong position when it is about introspection. I think this is something I do all the time. But this is susceptible for biases.

I am getting clean of benzos the last days. I haven't touch them. Without withdrawal symptoms. But I am taking z-medication since 3,5 weeks straight. I think maximum should be 6 weeks. This could become crucial. My stomach still hurts all the time. I try not to binge eat. But my stomach is pretty insane lately.

I didn't go to the self-help group. I think the chemistry master student is manipulating one person to hate me. The dude who has the crazy postition that if there is a shooting he only has empathy for one person (the shooter).
But really I don't care this much. The person will realize eventually which kind of person she is. Recently, I had to think about something. Whether people who are in favor of Israel in the Middle East conflict are in generally a red flag. My former therapist was staunchly pro-Israel and criticized me for going to a pro-Palestine protest. She put me in the Nazi corner for it. She turned out to be really phoney. And I have the feeling many people who are in favor of Israel where I live are careerists. They posture themselves as morally superior on top of that. I know some people in favor of Israel. For example, the dude that gets manipulated by the chemistry master student. And another college friend. And I get the feeling either these people are pretty brainwashed, don't know dick about the actual conflict or are straight morally corrupt.

I think though being pro-Palestine is still no green flag for me. It is good but you cannot judge the moral integrity by that. I am not fully sure.

 

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I went for the jugular from my former therapist. I think she feels the pressure and currently looks for a lawyer. I think she fucked up the situation pretty hard and I think the lawyer had to be really good to make a real change. This week I have an appointment with my psychiatrist about the situation and I am very nervous...The appointment is pretty early at the morning. And that's not good. Maybe I will take a benzo beforehand. I have the feeling she sort of teams up with her...which is unfair.

Is she teaming up with her?

If a psychiatrist is doing anything less than actively discouraging legal action against a fellow mental health practitioner, I'd probably read that as a genuine intention and meaningful effort to support you. For her to endorse the idea of suing your therapist would be to speak against her colleague in the context of malpractice, and if this became public knowledge, it could have consequences for her own reputation and career. I'd expect anyone in your psychiatrist's position would figure themselves as being in a delicate position, caught in the middle between you and your former therapist amidst the prospect of legal action.

I would recommend trying to allow your psychiatrist a lot of latitude as far as what she says and does regarding this topic.

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

I think though being pro-Palestine is still no green flag for me. It is good but you cannot judge the moral integrity by that. I am not fully sure.

Definitely. I've unfortunately met some people that only use being pro-Palestine as a guise to hide their other shortcomings.

Being anti-Indigenous, antisemitic (most accusations of antisemitism by big Zionists are false, but unfortunately it does exist in the community), capitalist, or antitheist (this might be a bit controversial for me to call a shortcoming on this site, but I fully believe that lumping all religions, even all Abrahamic religions together, is prejudiced).

 

[noname223]

Is she teaming up with her?

If a psychiatrist is doing anything less than actively discouraging legal action against a fellow mental health practitioner, I'd probably read that as a genuine intention and meaningful effort to support you. For her to endorse the idea of suing your therapist would be to speak against her colleague in the context of malpractice, and if this became public knowledge, it could have consequences for her own reputation and career. I'd expect anyone in your psychiatrist's position would figure themselves as being in a delicate position, caught in the middle between you and your former therapist amidst the prospect of legal action.

I would recommend trying to allow your psychiatrist a lot of latitude as far as what she says and does regarding this topic.

Thank you for this very helpful information. I need to stay calm. Thanks a lot Link you supported me so much through this. Thank you from the deepest of my heart. I know I have a very clear notion of what is right. But strategically my approach brought me in a pretty comfortable position who is more trustworthy in this conflict.

I am not sure whether she is teaming up. She is against escalation. I did not have a long conversation thus far. It gonna be this week though.

I am technically not sueing my therapist. I am just reporting her. That'a huge difference I think. I wasn't sure about the difference thus far. I don't know all the technical terms in English. I won't sue her that's for sure. It won't cost me money and there is way less risk for me in the comparison to sueing her. I just want to clean my medical records. And reporting her could fix that. I have a pretty strong case.

By the way she cannot threaten me with a lawyer. Actually, she could but this would backfire massively. I haven't made allegations towards her thus far. All I did was documenting and insisting on my rights as a patient.

 

[noname223]

I might have a smoking gun in the case..she admitted to something severe today...