I hope I can help other people suffering immensely from unexplained medical symptoms and feeling failed by the medical industry. It was this post that touched me: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/letter-from-ss-member-before-their-vad-pegasos.118834/
My life changed in the Summer of 2024. I was normal guy living a relatively normal life. I woke up one day and felt I was in a different "body". I started to experience the most severe insomnia which then escalated into severe pains and muscle tension affecting my breathing. Everything seemed to be amplified from medication side effects to sounds to internal sensations. The condition is "invisible". Life became intolerable and the medical industry has no answers or solution to my condition. It took me a year to figure out what I was suffering from. This condition is called Central Sensitisation and could be triggered by illness (such as Lyme, Mold, Covid etc) and/or other stressors. Once CS is triggered medication side effects/withdrawals amplify the condition and the more fear your symptoms the worse the condition gets. This condition happens because the limbic brain is perceiving danger and is acting out to protect you buy amplifying sensations. This is a defect of the brain because it's acting out on perceived danger i.e. not actual threat and the more you feed it with fear the more the limbic brain escalates symptoms. It's a horrid condition because a) it can be incapacitating when severe b) few doctors know anything about it c) people suffer relentlessly and have no idea how to control their symptoms i.e. they unintentionally feed their symptoms.
When I read the post from linked thread I knew almost instantaneously that he had CS (I felt an instant connection to this person). This poor guy suffered for so long and died without a proper diagnosis. If any of you are suicidal because of unexplained and severe symptoms please look into Mind Body work; TMSWiki.org and Pain Free You channel on YT is a good place to start.
At least having a diagnosis enables me to stabilise my symptoms as it was escalating to crisis over the Christmas of 2024. Like the guy on linked thread, I cannot continue to live my life but neither can I take my own life. I am also considering VAD myself and I hope that an IV of Pentobarbital is painless. I hope this post would help prevent someone from taking their own life as that comes with significant risk. If you think you have CS and life is intolerable you may qualify for VAD in Switzerland from organisations like Pegasos so that may be in option for you (it's less risky). You are not alone. There are others out there just like you who have been failed by the medical industry.
My life changed in the Summer of 2024. I was normal guy living a relatively normal life. I woke up one day and felt I was in a different "body". I started to experience the most severe insomnia which then escalated into severe pains and muscle tension affecting my breathing. Everything seemed to be amplified from medication side effects to sounds to internal sensations. The condition is "invisible". Life became intolerable and the medical industry has no answers or solution to my condition. It took me a year to figure out what I was suffering from. This condition is called Central Sensitisation and could be triggered by illness (such as Lyme, Mold, Covid etc) and/or other stressors. Once CS is triggered medication side effects/withdrawals amplify the condition and the more fear your symptoms the worse the condition gets. This condition happens because the limbic brain is perceiving danger and is acting out to protect you buy amplifying sensations. This is a defect of the brain because it's acting out on perceived danger i.e. not actual threat and the more you feed it with fear the more the limbic brain escalates symptoms. It's a horrid condition because a) it can be incapacitating when severe b) few doctors know anything about it c) people suffer relentlessly and have no idea how to control their symptoms i.e. they unintentionally feed their symptoms.
When I read the post from linked thread I knew almost instantaneously that he had CS (I felt an instant connection to this person). This poor guy suffered for so long and died without a proper diagnosis. If any of you are suicidal because of unexplained and severe symptoms please look into Mind Body work; TMSWiki.org and Pain Free You channel on YT is a good place to start.
At least having a diagnosis enables me to stabilise my symptoms as it was escalating to crisis over the Christmas of 2024. Like the guy on linked thread, I cannot continue to live my life but neither can I take my own life. I am also considering VAD myself and I hope that an IV of Pentobarbital is painless. I hope this post would help prevent someone from taking their own life as that comes with significant risk. If you think you have CS and life is intolerable you may qualify for VAD in Switzerland from organisations like Pegasos so that may be in option for you (it's less risky). You are not alone. There are others out there just like you who have been failed by the medical industry.
