restinpeace2
Member
- May 28, 2024
- 26
Barely slept past midnight. Woke up feeling sad and anxious today, also lonely. I also worry because I don't want to study, but despite applying to many I haven't achieved any retail job. I have a preference for the fashion retail stores as it is easier for my mind to process. There are so many vacancies yet no response besides 2 stores who interview screened me. I wish retail was treated as a proper job because it seems like the industry is only seen as a stepping stone, temporary and limited or varying shifts.
I want to avoid Universal Credit and earn some own money hence why I've been applying so much. I hate living on £299 per month, I go to the Food bank but don't like their options however I have to appreciate it still. I shouldn't be living like this, I have no one I can rely on. Yes I want to work, however that would mean being on council tax again and Housing benefit removed, paying prescriptions. I would prefer to work full time permanent sales assistant as it would help me avoid going to the jobcentre then I can end my Universal Credit claim. No more appointments and signing on journal. It's not a pleasant experience. Appointment times change at no notice, and can be randomly changed from in person to telephone. I don't like being poor. I need to be hired. I have lots of fashion retail experience but this world is so unfair at times in how employment systems work.
I feel quite upset about a lot of things. I'm not enjoying the summer or my free time. I'm worried the jobcentre will force me into something I don't want to do, lose patience or sanction. I wish there was a better way. I wish I had someone I could lean on financially as well as the Housing. I am my only dependent and there isn't anyone else to help me. I miss living in a home, not a temporary studio flat. I miss living with separate rooms, an upstairs and downstairs. There are times when I'd rather move out and in with someone else, but I don't know anyone. If there was someone I could get along with. Waiting on the council is much stress and their communication is bad.
Does anyone else have a similar experience (in England)?
I want to avoid Universal Credit and earn some own money hence why I've been applying so much. I hate living on £299 per month, I go to the Food bank but don't like their options however I have to appreciate it still. I shouldn't be living like this, I have no one I can rely on. Yes I want to work, however that would mean being on council tax again and Housing benefit removed, paying prescriptions. I would prefer to work full time permanent sales assistant as it would help me avoid going to the jobcentre then I can end my Universal Credit claim. No more appointments and signing on journal. It's not a pleasant experience. Appointment times change at no notice, and can be randomly changed from in person to telephone. I don't like being poor. I need to be hired. I have lots of fashion retail experience but this world is so unfair at times in how employment systems work.
I feel quite upset about a lot of things. I'm not enjoying the summer or my free time. I'm worried the jobcentre will force me into something I don't want to do, lose patience or sanction. I wish there was a better way. I wish I had someone I could lean on financially as well as the Housing. I am my only dependent and there isn't anyone else to help me. I miss living in a home, not a temporary studio flat. I miss living with separate rooms, an upstairs and downstairs. There are times when I'd rather move out and in with someone else, but I don't know anyone. If there was someone I could get along with. Waiting on the council is much stress and their communication is bad.
Does anyone else have a similar experience (in England)?
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