undiagnosed adhd ruined my life

[wayn]

Idk now i have to work shitty jobs? Yeah i dont have a high school degree.. I find everything boring, and a lot of things, my social life is trash aswell, I have to be on drugs 0 24 to be atleast a bit like others idk man im 21 also dont feel much emotions besides fustration and boredom, yeah aspd maybe? i have a very high cognitive empathy though and high iq WHICH IS A FUCKING CURSE WITH ADHD... LOL I'm 70% that I will gonna kill myself in 2025, anyway Im ordering SN atleast its kinda easy to get it in eastern europe, fuck myself, i love this comminity tho and love you all. ♡ anyone else with adhd?
The only fucking problem that my mother doesnt want me to do it and my girlfriend yeah should I live for others? Idk but i know that I would did it a long time ago if I dont know these persons.
Wish no one would give a fuck about me and i could kms rn

 

[Bcfgjk1]

I'm so glad I've been declared a disabled veteran. Now, I receive monthly checks, so I don't have to work anymore. Going from being a taco slave (working at Taco Bell) to cannon fodder (being in the military) to a bread slave (working at Panera Bread) to an art slave (working at Micheals) was misery.
Every mentally ill person should receive monthly checks. We're not lazy because, despite my undiagnosed disability, I worked. We're disabled because, due to my undiagnosed disability, I'd lose my mind. I'd try to kill myself. Over and over and over again.

 

[yowai]

I also wish I had no one so I could do my duty in peace and not feel guilty, I don't have adhd diagnosis but I'm on the spectrum and I feel you

 

[bleepbloopbleep]

I got diagnosed at 19 and I'm 23 now.

It fucking blows. The empathy kills me. The strong emotions for things, yet numbness for a lot of other things, absolutely kills me.

I'm also going to do the SN method. So I'm with ya there.

I'm in uni right now, my first year at 23. It took many many gap years or redo years to get here because I kept failing. Now that I'm here the struggle to study is even bigger. I'm on meds constantly to try and survive but my meds make me extremely depressed too.

One of my friends with ADHD told me I encouraged and inspired them to try university again. I feel ashamed, like I ruined their life too, because I'm struggling so much. Not completely failing tho, so I'll give myself that.

And no matter what, it seems like this struggle will never really stop.