mentionized1
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- Apr 13, 2019
- 43
I tried partial suspension something around four to five times but I'm unable to pass out. I tried it while standing, leaning, sitting and even lying. And I tried chocking myself while lying in bed by tightening the rope around my neck. Before doing all of this I always checked the exact time to be able to recognize if I passed out or not.
Sometimes if I go for partial suspension and the rope is well tightened around my neck, little time passes and I need to start to heavily breath through my mouth. Breathing through my nose becomes uncomfortable so I have to use my mouth instead.
I have got different theses right know:
- Way to less pressure around my neck by body weight (even my neck pained because of the tightened rope - I guess this is normal?)
- Wrong technique or spot (carotid artery?)
- I am too dumb to commit suicide
- Since I don't remember and I think I never passed out in life yet, "my body cannot pass out"
- I already succeeded with partial suspension but I am unable to recognize if I died because we might live in a multidimensional universe where living beings are immortal
I also fucked up overdosing Morphine by drinking poppy seeds tea. I think the Morphine dosage was too low and I drunk way too less of that "tea". After one hour I got high and felt like the happiest human being on earth (yes, my intention was only to get opioid poisoning in blood flow to die afterwards, not to get high) - for that short time problems and bad thoughts were gone. The side effect was that I couldn't sleep all night, but I didn't feel tired either. The next day I couldn't orinate for about half a day, had a nausea and whenever I stood on my feet I had extreme orientation problems - feeling was way stronger for me than alcohol.
I don't really like pain, but what else to do? Really need urgent help for this.
Sometimes if I go for partial suspension and the rope is well tightened around my neck, little time passes and I need to start to heavily breath through my mouth. Breathing through my nose becomes uncomfortable so I have to use my mouth instead.
I have got different theses right know:
- Way to less pressure around my neck by body weight (even my neck pained because of the tightened rope - I guess this is normal?)
- Wrong technique or spot (carotid artery?)
- I am too dumb to commit suicide
- Since I don't remember and I think I never passed out in life yet, "my body cannot pass out"
- I already succeeded with partial suspension but I am unable to recognize if I died because we might live in a multidimensional universe where living beings are immortal
I also fucked up overdosing Morphine by drinking poppy seeds tea. I think the Morphine dosage was too low and I drunk way too less of that "tea". After one hour I got high and felt like the happiest human being on earth (yes, my intention was only to get opioid poisoning in blood flow to die afterwards, not to get high) - for that short time problems and bad thoughts were gone. The side effect was that I couldn't sleep all night, but I didn't feel tired either. The next day I couldn't orinate for about half a day, had a nausea and whenever I stood on my feet I had extreme orientation problems - feeling was way stronger for me than alcohol.
I don't really like pain, but what else to do? Really need urgent help for this.
