Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
I really don't see any other options for me. I dropped out of my college because my depression and other mental health issues were getting in the way and making me sleep sometimes as much as 16 hours and I can't find any jobs that work with my cognitive issues and make a decent amount to move out. I would get on disability again, but I didn't make much on it and couldn't move out. My disordered eating is also acting up and I've lost 4 lbs in 3 days (mostly by walking a lot from my job and not really eating).
I'm also pretty sure I'm going to lose my job in the next couple of weeks/months as I was written up for my 2nd time along with a few others for not stocking fast enough.
I'm also pretty sure my therapist is tired of me and not seeing really any progress.
Some of my friends tell me it'll get better, but all its done is get worse.
I'm just too fucked up for this world. I felt like screaming at work, but that would've looked weird. I'm a ticking time bomb at this point. It's not a matter of how I'll ctb, but what date and when my SI lowers to where I can finally ctb and be at peace.
I'm also pretty sure I'm going to lose my job in the next couple of weeks/months as I was written up for my 2nd time along with a few others for not stocking fast enough.
I'm also pretty sure my therapist is tired of me and not seeing really any progress.
Some of my friends tell me it'll get better, but all its done is get worse.
I'm just too fucked up for this world. I felt like screaming at work, but that would've looked weird. I'm a ticking time bomb at this point. It's not a matter of how I'll ctb, but what date and when my SI lowers to where I can finally ctb and be at peace.