Was born from a mother who survived a brain tumor at the age of 17. A miracle in it of itself. Mother parents divorced at the fall of the Soviet Union. She has after effects of that and is considered disabled.
Father's both parents were orphans and he himself was a street kid that took to petty crime for delinquency but later stopped the moment he turned 18. Had his own business as well, issues with alcohol.
Mother was very short (around 152-153 cm or 5 feet) and father was 184-185 (6 to 6'1) i turned out to be 175 or 5'9.
The parents divorce at the age of 8 cause the Father had an affair that resulted in to him having another kid. We moved around with mother, but ultimately settled living with my grandmother.
I exceed in English and have been working for the last 6 years for US companies remotely.
Went bold at the age of 20 and that took him to my self-image, but I did fix it somewhat with a hair transplant. I did everything to help dad with supplies from US and overall did a lot of very interesting stuff in the last 3 years.
When war began, mother went with me to western Ukraine and recently left for Germany and I believe it's permanently.
Father went to war as a volunteer, lost his leg and is currently on a recovery in Germany. Waiting for him to come back to Ukraine so we can make papers and get me out of Ukraine in to Germany (hopefully).
I have no other options because bribes are not effective to go abroad, and I would not do it as a son of a man who went to defend our country.
It appears that there are not a lot of smart decisions to be made. 30 percent of all the woman and children have left Ukraine and are unlikely to come back. There is nothing waiting for me here.
Even if I will go to Germany, I don't know if I will cope with the thought of ending my life as I feel such overwhelming sadness on the daily basis.
I think there's a very high chance that I will make the final decision sometime in my late 30s, as after that it will be the decline of my body.
I'm decent looking and have many positive qualities, and yet I feel that the drive to live is slowly fading.
My only reason for living is to witness the rise of the Artificial Intelligence, and it's usage in creating human like companions to help others.
I want to see a world in which humans understand their limitations and accept that the new level of evolution will be synthetic/robotic.
Once I'm certain this is the irreversible future of making, I can die in peace. Because it doesn't matter what happens next, be it paradise or extinction.
That is all I wanted to say. I'm an Anti-natalist and know that not every life should have been made.
Father's both parents were orphans and he himself was a street kid that took to petty crime for delinquency but later stopped the moment he turned 18. Had his own business as well, issues with alcohol.
Mother was very short (around 152-153 cm or 5 feet) and father was 184-185 (6 to 6'1) i turned out to be 175 or 5'9.
The parents divorce at the age of 8 cause the Father had an affair that resulted in to him having another kid. We moved around with mother, but ultimately settled living with my grandmother.
I exceed in English and have been working for the last 6 years for US companies remotely.
Went bold at the age of 20 and that took him to my self-image, but I did fix it somewhat with a hair transplant. I did everything to help dad with supplies from US and overall did a lot of very interesting stuff in the last 3 years.
When war began, mother went with me to western Ukraine and recently left for Germany and I believe it's permanently.
Father went to war as a volunteer, lost his leg and is currently on a recovery in Germany. Waiting for him to come back to Ukraine so we can make papers and get me out of Ukraine in to Germany (hopefully).
I have no other options because bribes are not effective to go abroad, and I would not do it as a son of a man who went to defend our country.
It appears that there are not a lot of smart decisions to be made. 30 percent of all the woman and children have left Ukraine and are unlikely to come back. There is nothing waiting for me here.
Even if I will go to Germany, I don't know if I will cope with the thought of ending my life as I feel such overwhelming sadness on the daily basis.
I think there's a very high chance that I will make the final decision sometime in my late 30s, as after that it will be the decline of my body.
I'm decent looking and have many positive qualities, and yet I feel that the drive to live is slowly fading.
My only reason for living is to witness the rise of the Artificial Intelligence, and it's usage in creating human like companions to help others.
I want to see a world in which humans understand their limitations and accept that the new level of evolution will be synthetic/robotic.
Once I'm certain this is the irreversible future of making, I can die in peace. Because it doesn't matter what happens next, be it paradise or extinction.
That is all I wanted to say. I'm an Anti-natalist and know that not every life should have been made.
