A_miStake_of_NATURE
I wish no one had to CTB..........
- Aug 14, 2020
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The ugliness of my own body and mind became unbearable to live with. Every time I see myself in the mirror I get so overwhelmed I wanna cry. And I do. It's such a painful feeling to realize it's impossible to escape myself, except for committing suicide. And close people telling me they can't see what I'm seeing is really not helping. Why isn't it enough to agree with me if that's how I think and feel?? My own mom starts screaming whenever I try to talk to her about it. I guess she thinks that calling me shallow can be somewhat helpful. I wonder if it happens because she just feels ashamed and embarrassed to have a daughter like me….. But tbh, I don't care if she does….. That was her choice, to give birth to me.
I know she loves me, but being so dismissive of my feelings truly hurts me. I can't even cry when she's home, because she starts accusing me of trying to cause her pain.
Does anyone relate?….
I know she loves me, but being so dismissive of my feelings truly hurts me. I can't even cry when she's home, because she starts accusing me of trying to cause her pain.
Does anyone relate?….