Venting Ugh I have to leave my room and home.

[PatKat]

I have to go to a psychologist on the 17th and I'm deathly afraid, and dont have the energy to leave home. I have to go though it isnt an option the government is forcing me. I hate that the government controls me.

What can I do to remain calm in public, and not have panic attacks? I flip out when I leave home I havent left in so many months i have been in bed pretty much. I do not want to get held against my will again... spending 5 - 10 days in a psychiatrist hospital is not something I want again. They never help I have been to so many inpatient places over the years. The result is always the same... just say what they want to hear to let me go free.

I hate that they can take my fucking rights away! They took my firearms, I cant buy another.<I have tried it was denied.>

Funny thing is I would never use a firearm to CTB why dont they understand and listen to me!

I HATE THIS WORLD! I DIDNT ASK FOR THIS SHIT!

I wish I was aborted then this would never be an issue.

Sorry everyone just had to vent I hope I didnt offend anyone. :(

 

[Halo13]

It can definitely be hard to leave. I deal with it by putting earbuds in, bringing a book, anything to get my attention on something else to help the anxiety. Sorry you're struggling with this. Just remember how good it will feel to be safe back in bed :)

 

[redxiii]

yeah, being outside around people can be tough :( especially if you've not been out for a while and it feels weird and uncomfortable. try to remember people generally don't give any thought or pay much attention to others, you're just another stranger they're passing by.

i also find music helps, or i used to have a mantra i'd repeat in my head 'om mani padmi hum', anything to distract from my own thoughts..

hope the day goes ok for you, maybe try to reward yourself with something after the appointment like icecream or alcohol :) so the mission outside feels more worthwhile

 

[PatKat]

yeah, being outside around people can be tough :( especially if you've not been out for a while and it feels weird and uncomfortable. try to remember people generally don't give any thought or pay much attention to others, you're just another stranger they're passing by.

i also find music helps, or i used to have a mantra i'd repeat in my head 'om mani padmi hum', anything to distract from my own thoughts..

hope the day goes ok for you, maybe try to reward yourself with something after the appointment like icecream or alcohol :) so the mission outside feels more worthwhile

I dont drink alcohol anymore or eat ice cream :(. I should change my name to No Fun.

 

[lost_soul83]

Wanna know how to deal in public? Drugs, lots and lots of drugs.....

But seriously I'm sorry you're in this situation. I find that when a person is backed into a corner and left with no other options, bad things happen. I hope this doesn't happen to you. I'm sorry I don't have any good advice, just maybe try and get a script for Xanax or something, just to deal with the anxiety.

 

[RedDEE]

Wanna know how to deal in public? Drugs, lots and lots of drugs.....

Came here to say this.. LOL. But yeah, when your anxiety is at critical levels like mine (and I can see that you're like me), your only options are pretty much xanax or face the suffering head on.

 

[NoOneKnows]

Wanna know how to deal in public? Drugs, lots and lots of drugs.....

But seriously I'm sorry you're in this situation. I find that when a person is backed into a corner and left with no other options, bad things happen. I hope this doesn't happen to you. I'm sorry I don't have any good advice, just maybe try and get a script for Xanax or something, just to deal with the anxiety.

same with my level and intensity of anxiety in social situations, I have to use sometimes even 5 different substances that affect CNS to be able to even go to buy food for myself. let alone doctor appointment brr...I usually make a mild coffee (only to create a bit of a boost, too strong increases anxiety), 2 different antidepres, green tea, half of sleeping pill (i dont fall asleep, but it helps to kinda dissociate, benzo dont work well anymore). I still arrive home in terror and sweat.
To OP, have you tried somethning natural -half an hour before you leave taking valeriana , it can be tea or it is included in natural sleeping aid medication?

 

[JadedGray]

I have to go to a psychologist on the 17th and I'm deathly afraid, and dont have the energy to leave home. I have to go though it isnt an option the government is forcing me. I hate that the government controls me.

What can I do to remain calm in public, and not have panic attacks? I flip out when I leave home I havent left in so many months i have been in bed pretty much. I do not want to get held against my will again... spending 5 - 10 days in a psychiatrist hospital is not something I want again. They never help I have been to so many inpatient places over the years. The result is always the same... just say what they want to hear to let me go free.

I hate that they can take my fucking rights away! They took my firearms, I cant buy another.<I have tried it was denied.>

Funny thing is I would never use a firearm to CTB why dont they understand and listen to me!

I HATE THIS WORLD! I DIDNT ASK FOR THIS SHIT!

I wish I was aborted then this would never be an issue.

Sorry everyone just had to vent I hope I didnt offend anyone. :(

I can relate to this. Wearing sunglasses can help, at least you don't feel like you're having to look directly at anybody and make eye contact.

 

[Nutcase]

If I had some decent clothes to put on I'd feel fine going out, but I keep procrastinating going to buy new clothes because I despise going to clothes shops and trying things on, one of the most boring/stressful things for me. Going out knowing my clothes look like shit, no haircut in months because going to the barbers is horrible and having an unkempt beard from not giving a fuck is the anxiety provoking part for me, before I stopped drinking sometimes I'd buy a small bottle of vodka and down it in a bathroom stall just so I could feel okay being in public.