Two week break

[deathisnear]

Well, I took a break from here and now I'm back. The thoughts still rage ... even though it was a nice break, it doesn't change the thoughts or make the thoughts go away. And now I'm back to my worthless existence, so I just need to get my ass in gear, focus on getting my notes done and doing the deed. It's my birthday month next month and I hate it because I'm supposed to be dead right now if I had followed my original ctb date, so I will probably turn another year older which sucks, but hopefully by the end of this year I will be dead and this will all finally be over.

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really can be painful. I dislike my birthday now too, I hate getting older. I wish you peace if this is the option you want.

 

[deathisnear]

Living really can be painful. I dislike my birthday now too, I hate getting older. I wish you peace if this is the option you want.

I definitely do. I hate turning another year older, but I'd rather do it right than rush things. The end of the year is the end of the road for me, hopefully sooner.