VIBRITANNIA
lelouch. any pronouns. pfp is by pixiv id 3217872.
- Aug 10, 2020
- 1,156
don't feel obligated to reply to this. i'm just fucking pissed.
i literally cannot do anything right. i can't even fucking process my emotions right. i fucked up something so easy a third grader could do it, and i got mad, so what do i decide to do? start fucking stabbing the walls and bending silverware and kicking shit like some sort of fucking idiot? i can't even process my emotions correctly. what the fuck.
and i can't even do something as simple as cutting right! i can't even will myself to go deeper, or to stop being such a pussy and burn myself. and then i ask myself why i'm miserable all the time. maybe if i could actually hurt myself, i wouldn't be here.
god, two months cannot go by fast enough. i swear, at this point, i might just opt for stabbing my throat instead of sn. i don't fucking care about how painful it is. at least if i stab my throat, it'll be violent and quick. god. my day is ruined and it's all my fault.
i literally cannot do anything right. i can't even fucking process my emotions right. i fucked up something so easy a third grader could do it, and i got mad, so what do i decide to do? start fucking stabbing the walls and bending silverware and kicking shit like some sort of fucking idiot? i can't even process my emotions correctly. what the fuck.
and i can't even do something as simple as cutting right! i can't even will myself to go deeper, or to stop being such a pussy and burn myself. and then i ask myself why i'm miserable all the time. maybe if i could actually hurt myself, i wouldn't be here.
god, two months cannot go by fast enough. i swear, at this point, i might just opt for stabbing my throat instead of sn. i don't fucking care about how painful it is. at least if i stab my throat, it'll be violent and quick. god. my day is ruined and it's all my fault.