Memento Mori
shambling garbage
- Jan 24, 2019
- 573
if this fails: i'm looking for some fellows, in a rather similar situation. maybe we can motivate each other to not be a lazy ass instead, but is there anyone out there with constancy and possibilites to rehab
no energy to comment, no idea f this will knock me out...reached a new leve lof disturbedness. should i even sagoodbye. i may wake up anyw<ys. damn these dissociatives make u think words, actually see them, but you dont have any fucking relation to that word or idea what it could mean. its a wonder that i can type, sounds like i need mehr cognac if u wanna talk about effects of any drug feel free to pm me, i have the whole day, tryin to play games now in that state of derealisation lol. low dose roulez ♥ love and peace, i will show up again even more as a zombie as yet. everyone tells me i look bad, i need 15hours sleep a day lol. is this the 500+mg benzos i killed or is this my body being used to that constant state of rape? so why dies the ket<mine hol me awake for 2 days now before that i slept fine but now theres no time, maybe this is like a crystal junkie feels. never sleep no break from thinking about the next line. what if i run out of stuff? better prepare for that. i love spamming this forum, so i need no diary i wouldnt read it anyways i guess? :( and can learn to stop writing romans to people about shit they dont brag about time for some pvp slaughter seeeeeeeee yaaa
oh and my breathing is constantly at a heavy point for 2-3 days now, i felt good but today i feel like shit. maybe reduce alcohol, it feels like it just doesnt fit in bigger amounts. i have 2 breath depressant substances, plus alcohol, and i'll add some opiates tomorrow. gueess it will be something like tilidin, hopefully oxycontin, and tramadol is shit because of serotonine syndrome (i only know the roboflip death from dxm(dissco)+mdma(sero-releaser)).
is there any plant or shit i can throw into to make it easier to pass out? im not that sleepy yet i think i can make some more days, there's also caffeine and speed
i should reload my nose now this shit took half an hour to write and to corect, it feels like the complete keyboard is delayed to north-east. bad english lol.
wish me luck in...freedom i guess? or ultimate carelessness...i still need to say goodbye so ill have to do that before adding the opiates.
is there any risk like brain damage if i'm just permanently ultimate high on multiple substances? ie olneys lesions?
damn questions over questions, handle me overrr det fuckin N mate!
eiit: i iwll update. for what i can say ketamine is also a good breathing depressant but combination with all the other ones, if it is that peaceful, idl... i will keep at low dosage to push everything else. but i can relate to many feelings i had from dissociatives alredy
either i want this to fuckin blow me away or hand me over to psych ward but no fuckin money and that place is hell too
these days were too much. i stop not venting and go back into my inner self, i need more than feeling my heartbeart in my whole body, give me enlightenment! or else im dead soon makes no sense trying to make a dog speak
oh i should mention that i took about 350mg ketamine and 700mg pure thienodiazepine powder, cant count the alcohol its everywhere lol
no energy to comment, no idea f this will knock me out...reached a new leve lof disturbedness. should i even sagoodbye. i may wake up anyw<ys. damn these dissociatives make u think words, actually see them, but you dont have any fucking relation to that word or idea what it could mean. its a wonder that i can type, sounds like i need mehr cognac if u wanna talk about effects of any drug feel free to pm me, i have the whole day, tryin to play games now in that state of derealisation lol. low dose roulez ♥ love and peace, i will show up again even more as a zombie as yet. everyone tells me i look bad, i need 15hours sleep a day lol. is this the 500+mg benzos i killed or is this my body being used to that constant state of rape? so why dies the ket<mine hol me awake for 2 days now before that i slept fine but now theres no time, maybe this is like a crystal junkie feels. never sleep no break from thinking about the next line. what if i run out of stuff? better prepare for that. i love spamming this forum, so i need no diary i wouldnt read it anyways i guess? :( and can learn to stop writing romans to people about shit they dont brag about time for some pvp slaughter seeeeeeeee yaaa
oh and my breathing is constantly at a heavy point for 2-3 days now, i felt good but today i feel like shit. maybe reduce alcohol, it feels like it just doesnt fit in bigger amounts. i have 2 breath depressant substances, plus alcohol, and i'll add some opiates tomorrow. gueess it will be something like tilidin, hopefully oxycontin, and tramadol is shit because of serotonine syndrome (i only know the roboflip death from dxm(dissco)+mdma(sero-releaser)).
is there any plant or shit i can throw into to make it easier to pass out? im not that sleepy yet i think i can make some more days, there's also caffeine and speed
i should reload my nose now this shit took half an hour to write and to corect, it feels like the complete keyboard is delayed to north-east. bad english lol.
wish me luck in...freedom i guess? or ultimate carelessness...i still need to say goodbye so ill have to do that before adding the opiates.
is there any risk like brain damage if i'm just permanently ultimate high on multiple substances? ie olneys lesions?
damn questions over questions, handle me overrr det fuckin N mate!
eiit: i iwll update. for what i can say ketamine is also a good breathing depressant but combination with all the other ones, if it is that peaceful, idl... i will keep at low dosage to push everything else. but i can relate to many feelings i had from dissociatives alredy
either i want this to fuckin blow me away or hand me over to psych ward but no fuckin money and that place is hell too
these days were too much. i stop not venting and go back into my inner self, i need more than feeling my heartbeart in my whole body, give me enlightenment! or else im dead soon makes no sense trying to make a dog speak
oh i should mention that i took about 350mg ketamine and 700mg pure thienodiazepine powder, cant count the alcohol its everywhere lol
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