yuno
person
- Sep 10, 2022
- 42
Just needed to vent here a little because I am really bothered lately. I'm trying to stay patient and ctb once certain terms are met, but each day I face more and more reminders of how much I need to leave this place. I'm finding myself impatient and each day I just want to ctb more. The method I've chosen can take a few days or even longer, so a piece of me wants to begin dosing myself with the poison already. My terms are almost met, but each day the need to ctb is louder and louder. This is my ultimate wish and I have the ability to make it come true. I need to go. This is the ultimate yearning of my heart and for so long too. It's painful just to wait around. Waiting for my terms to be met. I don't know if I can keep on waiting. I want to go now. As soon as possible. But I know I mustn't get impulsive. It's just a pain.