Story Trying to get my shit together

[Readytogo#Broken]

Been dreading this...No "failed attempts" & no, "it didn't work," I just backed out, I stuck to 48hr regimen, had faith in it, 2nd day as it approached the time, I backed out, my own pain was outweighed by my family's friends & everything there going through, don't think it's the time to add to it, I'm not in recovery but by fuck I'm Trying!!, SN is fine, I still put on a smile each day, but I'm trying. That's it.
Sorry to anyone that worried or added to anyone's situation, this place is full of love at the worst of times, I just had to take time out, I can't apologise enough for only coming on now, know friends updated things,
Im sorry for not replying to people I just needed some time to step back and think about things,
And...I'm trying!! I feel for everyone iv lost I kinda owe it to them to try life one more time, I'm going to try & live before I die, I hope the people on here iv got close to understand & I'll try my best to remain a positive force for people struggling, again I can't say how sorry I am enough, please take care & stay as strong as your situation allows.
❤

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

A gentle suggestion to link this thread in a new comment on the goodbye thread as others may check there for updates.

Thank you for the advice to take care and stay as strong as my situation allows.

 

[Thereisnothing]

My heart told me you hadn't gone. I didn't contact you as had a feeling you would need time to yourself. So relieved to have seen your post this evening and want you to know, that's Its made me so happy...........you know I am here if you need a chat my friend. Big hugs and love xx.

 

[voyager]

It was the right decision then. Do what you feel most comfortable with and best of luck to you.

 

[Jean4]

If you want to talk, you know how to pm me. You know I'm here for you.

 

[MsMaudlin]

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Been dreading this...No "failed attempts" & no, "it didn't work," I just backed out, I stuck to 48hr regimen, had faith in it, 2nd day as it approached the time, I backed out, my own pain was outweighed by my family's friends & everything there going through, don't think it's the time to add to it, I'm not in recovery but by fuck I'm Trying!!, SN is fine, I still put on a smile each day, but I'm trying. That's it.
Sorry to anyone that worried or added to anyone's situation, this place is full of love at the worst of times, I just had to take time out, I can't apologise enough for only coming on now, know friends updated things,
Im sorry for not replying to people I just needed some time to step back and think about things,
And...I'm trying!! I feel for everyone iv lost I kinda owe it to them to try life one more time, I'm going to try & live before I die, I hope the people on here iv got close to understand & I'll try my best to remain a positive force for people struggling, again I can't say how sorry I am enough, please take care & stay as strong as your situation allows.
❤

Nothing to apologise for, I'm so glad you are still here.
All the things we spoke about still mean the same.
❤

 

[Readytogo#Broken]

Thanks guys, I think and have spoke to friend about being so close to edge, Maybe sometimes it takes that, who knows,...I'm trying & that at least has to be worth a shot!! love & hugs