Discussion Trying to enjoy the last days of life before CTB

[Mr. Whippy]

I am determined to CTB as soon as i can, still gathering resources for the SN method. Anyway, i'm having trouble on enjoying my last days, i don't know what to do. Trying to listen to music, gaming, reading, nothing really sticks to me anymore.

What are you guys doing to enjoy your last days on this terrifying plane of existence?

 

[faust]

I am determined to CTB as soon as i can, still gathering resources for the SN method. Anyway, i'm having trouble on enjoying my last days, i don't know what to do. Trying to listen to music, gaming, reading, nothing really sticks to me anymore.

What are you guys doing to enjoy your last days on this terrifying plane of existence?

The problem is that I have yet so much time that I can die multiple times before CTB.
The days are very long, I want it to end as quickly as possible.
I would try to do something weird and not typical to me before CTB. Maybe skydiving? Cocaine? Postcrossing? Swimming with dolphins? Flying on helicopter? Or maybe paying for rent for homeless? Charity? I don't know yet. Knowing that I will CTB gives me more options than life in e.g. 6 months. I would suggest anything not too ordinary before you go, just to wind up and not to think too much about CTB.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I think for me, when I am just days away from ctb, I'll probably go storm chasing in a tornado prone area. I would want to go for that adrenaline rush, but at the same time, I wouldn't want to get too close to the tornado if I could help it. I'd prefer to die in a way that is a lot more peaceful than having my car get thrown and mangled while I'm inside of it. Maybe afterwards, I could try to help people who have taken a direct hit, if I am able. It's hard to say since people are usually not allowed into disaster areas if they aren't trained first responders, even in rural places.

I can't really think of anything else that would interest me enough to want to do it when I'm that close to the end. I've gone storm chasing with a friend a couple of times, but I never got to see a tornado in person, so I think it would be worth it to be face to face with one at least once, before the end comes.

 

[faust]

I think for me, when I am just days away from ctb, I'll probably go storm chasing in a tornado prone area. I would want to go for that adrenaline rush, but at the same time, I wouldn't want to get too close to the tornado if I could help it. I'd prefer to die in a way that is a lot more peaceful than having my car get thrown and mangled while I'm inside of it. Maybe afterwards, I could try to help people who have taken a direct hit, if I am able. It's hard to say since people are usually not allowed into disaster areas if they aren't trained first responders, even in rural places.

I can't really think of anything else that would interest me enough to want to do it when I'm that close to the end. I've gone storm chasing with a friend a couple of times, but I never got to see a tornado in person, so I think it would be worth it to be face to face with one at least once, before the end comes.

NO NO NO! THIS MUST BE A DREAM! I LOVE STORMCHASING! THAT'S THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE!

 

[Lost in a Dream]

NO NO NO! THIS MUST BE A DREAM! I LOVE STORMCHASING! THAT'S THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE!

Have you done it before?

 

[faust]

Have you done it before?

Oy, yes, but I failed so much the last time. Take a look there if you wish:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-couldnt-believe-i-can-be-so-unlucky.31654/

 

[ryla2090]

Just relaxing at home while I prep my back-up plan, just in case hanging fails.

 

[BeenDoneForSoLong]

I think I'll fly to some cheap Indonesian place like Bali or something. Live it up, eat some really good food, run out of money and then die, in reality ill prolly not ever do it, or just compulsively neck it, although I really think compulsive suicide is awful.

 

[oxymoron]

I am determined to CTB as soon as i can, still gathering resources for the SN method. Anyway, i'm having trouble on enjoying my last days, i don't know what to do. Trying to listen to music, gaming, reading, nothing really sticks to me anymore.

What are you guys doing to enjoy your last days on this terrifying plane of existence?

Well, I've been drinking and sleeping and watching Netflix. It's gonna be one more week now. I don't have anything left to do anyways. Well played, life ; you win!

 

[to_rid_the_disease]

I'm not really doing anything special as I'm quite happy with what I've managed to do since last year (travelling on my own to another country, finishing up things) so I'm at peace in my mind. Just going to see my other half, see a friend and die in the place I was born. I have everything ready so I plan to go on Monday.

 

[autumnal]

The problem is that I have yet so much time that I can die multiple times before CTB.
The days are very long, I want it to end as quickly as possible.
I would try to do something weird and not typical to me before CTB. Maybe skydiving? Cocaine? Postcrossing? Swimming with dolphins? Flying on helicopter? Or maybe paying for rent for homeless? Charity? I don't know yet. Knowing that I will CTB gives me more options than life in e.g. 6 months. I would suggest anything not too ordinary before you go, just to wind up and not to think too much about CTB.

I hadn't heard of postcrossing and had to look it up. Sounds kind of cool.

 

[faust]

I hadn't heard of postcrossing and had to look it up. Sounds kind of cool.

Oh, ye, this platform. If you like sending postcards, letters, then it might be for you

Postcards connecting the world - Postcrossing

A postcard exchange project that invites everyone to send and receive postcards from random places in the world. For free!

www.postcrossing.com

 

[yetme]

The problem is that I have yet so much time that I can die multiple times before CTB.
The days are very long, I want it to end as quickly as possible.
I would try to do something weird and not typical to me before CTB. Maybe skydiving? Cocaine? Postcrossing? Swimming with dolphins? Flying on helicopter? Or maybe paying for rent for homeless? Charity? I don't know yet. Knowing that I will CTB gives me more options than life in e.g. 6 months. I would suggest anything not too ordinary before you go, just to wind up and not to think too much about CTB.

intead of cocain I would recommend pure MDMA and do it in some beautiful place) cocain makes you paranoid. MDMA calms you down

 

[BFishy]

I've never been into drugs but MDMA sounds pretty appealing.

 

[Indieblue]

Oh, ye, this platform. If you like sending postcards, letters, then it might be for you

Postcards connecting the world - Postcrossing

A postcard exchange project that invites everyone to send and receive postcards from random places in the world. For free!

www.postcrossing.com

Yeah... it was a great experience. She knitted a scarf for me and made me a few bracelets. And also gave me a cute teddy bear and mouse wearing a hooded t shirt that says friend on the front. She was even understanding about my depression and supported me. I recommend anyone trying it though it can be tough to find the right one for you.

 

[faust]

intead of cocain I would recommend pure MDMA and do it in some beautiful place) cocain makes you paranoid. MDMA calms you down

I have a very bad experience trying MDMA, so would not go for the same substance again. It caused blackout for me and I woke up in a strange place and during strange circumstances lol

Yeah... it was a great experience. She knitted a scarf for me and made me a few bracelets. And also gave me a cute teddy bear and mouse wearing a hooded t shirt that says friend on the front. She was even understanding about my depression and supported me. I recommend anyone trying it though it can be tough to find the right one for you.

I agree, this can be an unforgettable experience! I am glad you found such a nice person there ^^ But postcards and letters are good too ;)

 

[TheLastGoodbye]

I know how it feels. I don't really enjoy anything anymore myself.

 

[faraway_beach]

After receiving my cancer diagnosis, I treated last summer as the final summer I might be able to enjoy.

Tourists on a once-in-a-lifetime trip to New York City go to the Empire State Building, but the locals never do. They can go any time they want. When you can do something at any time, there's never a reason to do it at a particular time, so it never gets done. I gave myself permission to do those things. I went to the local tourist attractions. I went to the recurring yearly events.

 

[AlreadyGone]

I would be doing nothing. If there was anything I enjoyed, I would have done it already. At this point, I am simply ready to go.