Trying to CTB tomorrow morning.

[oneofthoseyoudontwan]

I will hang myself(partial) also I will use a belt to tie my hands, because of the SI, 2 years ago I tried and failed ( a really bad knot, not even a slip knot).
My reason's, I'm totally a mess, I suffer with NPD, I'm obsessed with my ex Girlfriend, I don't deserve her,
But my Mind is fucked up.
I am one those you don't wanna meet or know, I lost all hope, and I hate my self for being incapable of changing.
I feel like a robot, only bad emotions or feelings are with me , and the feeling of being voided inside is killing me.
I'm 26 years old Male, totally broken soul.

 

[shallow]

Whatever choice you make, we are we for you. I hope you find what you are looking for. Safe journey..

 

[LastRide]

I can virtually feel in your words how the pain tears you apart...I wish you peace ! Wherever your journey will take you...

 

[PeterPrincple]

I will hang myself(partial) also I will use a belt to tie my hands, because of the SI, 2 years ago I tried and failed ( a really bad knot, not even a slip knot).
My reason's, I'm totally a mess, I suffer with NPD, I'm obsessed with my ex Girlfriend, I don't deserve her,
But my Mind is fucked up.
I am one those you don't wanna meet or know, I lost all hope, and I hate my self for being incapable of changing.
I feel like a robot, only bad emotions or feelings are with me , and the feeling of being voided inside is killing me.
I'm 26 years old Male, totally broken soul.

Only 26? Dude, get some medicine, vitamin d, therapy, exercise, good diet, water, sunshine and a hobby.

 

[LastRide]

Only 26? Dude, get some medicine, vitamin d, therapy, exercise, good diet, water, sunshine and a hobby.

That's a mean thing to say honestly, if it was that easy why are we all here on the SS forum ???

 

[oneofthoseyoudontwan]

It's pretty easy to say it when you don't suffer with NPD, I'm taking meds, but my self-destructive personality is more powerfull, it's really hard to change my ego-driven life, it's like I'm all ready dead inside.

 

[x-Ace-x]

Whether you do it or not, I'll always support your decision because only you can decide what's best for you. Good luck friend

 

[PeterPrincple]

It's pretty easy to say it when you don't suffer with NPD, I'm taking meds, but my self-destructive personality is more powerfull, it's really hard to change my ego-driven life, it's like I'm all ready dead inside.

I get it man, when youre down in it you cant see a way out.

That's a mean thing to say honestly, if it was that easy why are we all here on the SS forum ???

Just hate to see someone so young Ctb. There's a long and potentially good life ahead if he can get his mental illness under control. Which seems impossible I know, but surly it is possible?

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Only 26? Dude, get some medicine, vitamin d, therapy, exercise, good diet, water, sunshine and a hobby.

If OP wanted such a generic pro-life answer he could´ve posted on reddit or any other site, this site is a sanctuary for suicidal people I mean with that answer alone why are you even on this forum?

 

[oneofthoseyoudontwan]

I get it man, when youre down in it you cant see a way out.


Just hate to see someone so young Ctb. There's a long and potentially good life ahead if he can get his mental illness under control. Which seems impossible I know, but surly it is possible?

NPD it's a curse , I'm a sociopath, it's really hard to live with, one of these types of disorders, I know I'm paying for my actions but, what's the point of living, when you can't connect deeply with others, or really love yourself. Just portrait yourself 24/7 with ideas of death and self hatred. That you only can be happy or energetic vampirizing energy from others. It's a curse.

 

[PeterPrincple]

If OP wanted such a generic pro-life answer he could´ve posted on reddit or any other site, this site is a sanctuary for suicidal people I mean with that answer alone why are you even on this forum?

Yeah that was a shitty generic pro-life answer. How about something more specific, like have you considered ketamine treatments or shrooms?

I came here because my wifey took my guns away so i needed an alternative method. Partial hanging is the way to go. Almost killed myself testing it.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I'm sorry you feel this way. If you decide to go through it I hope that you find peace

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry for all the suffering you've had to endure because of you illness. I wish you peace.

 

[oneofthoseyoudontwan]

Hope this will my last bath, last smoke and hope to CTB.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Only 26? Dude, get some medicine, vitamin d, therapy, exercise, good diet, water, sunshine and a hobby.

You forgot to said that he still should have children and get married before ctb. Can't believe what you said.

 

[Taran]

I will hang myself(partial) also I will use a belt to tie my hands, because of the SI, 2 years ago I tried and failed ( a really bad knot, not even a slip knot).
My reason's, I'm totally a mess, I suffer with NPD, I'm obsessed with my ex Girlfriend, I don't deserve her,
But my Mind is fucked up.
I am one those you don't wanna meet or know, I lost all hope, and I hate my self for being incapable of changing.
I feel like a robot, only bad emotions or feelings are with me , and the feeling of being voided inside is killing me.
I'm 26 years old Male, totally broken soul.

I hope you find what you're looking for...All the best brother

 

[braketimez]

Only 26? Dude, get some medicine, vitamin d, therapy, exercise, good diet, water, sunshine and a hobby.

You're being moronic.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Hope this will my last bath, last smoke and hope to CTB.

So very sorry sweetie..Just know, we r here for u

 

[Theman]

I will hang myself(partial) also I will use a belt to tie my hands, because of the SI, 2 years ago I tried and failed ( a really bad knot, not even a slip knot).
My reason's, I'm totally a mess, I suffer with NPD, I'm obsessed with my ex Girlfriend, I don't deserve her,
But my Mind is fucked up.
I am one those you don't wanna meet or know, I lost all hope, and I hate my self for being incapable of changing.
I feel like a robot, only bad emotions or feelings are with me , and the feeling of being voided inside is killing me.
I'm 26 years old Male, totally broken soul.

God bless you brother

 

[PeterPrincple]

You're being moronic.

No room for tough love here? Maybe this is what he really came here to hear? Easily ignored if truly suicidal i wou think

 

[Myforevercharlie]

A little candle burns for you, i hope it guides you to love and warmth.

 

[oneofthoseyoudontwan]

I've failed, thinking of using SN as my method.

 

[Lostandfound7]

I've failed, thinking of using SN as my method.

You haven't failed...Here if you need us

 

[Sad.L0lly]

I will hang myself(partial) also I will use a belt to tie my hands, because of the SI, 2 years ago I tried and failed ( a really bad knot, not even a slip knot).
My reason's, I'm totally a mess, I suffer with NPD, I'm obsessed with my ex Girlfriend, I don't deserve her,
But my Mind is fucked up.
I am one those you don't wanna meet or know, I lost all hope, and I hate my self for being incapable of changing.
I feel like a robot, only bad emotions or feelings are with me , and the feeling of being voided inside is killing me.
I'm 26 years old Male, totally broken soul.

hey, do you wanna talk to me in private? I hope you woke up better today, I'm wishing this with my full heart. <3 let's talk a little bit