snowlance
Ticking Time Bomb
- Sep 8, 2023
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I'm so tired...I dont want to keep going on anymore but I'm too scared to end it. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'm living with family rn but they're threatening to kick me out by next spring if I cant find a place to live and I can't work a normal job because of my disability. I've been homeless before and it's been this cruel cycle where I try to survive everyday only to get so weak from not eating or taking care of myself that I go to the ER and sometimes go inpatient but the result is always the same: they send me back out to the streets and the cycle repeats. At this point the only thing I look forward to is hopefully getting on disability and living the rest of my life getting high and playing video games or watching anime. I've given up on everything else. But it seems like I may not be able to even do that? If I had the courage or guts to ctb I definitely would've done it by now. I used to be so strong and had so many aspirations but life just wittled those down until there was nothing left.
I've been declined for disability twice now and they say 3rd times a charm so I'm really hoping that's true.
And I have a lawyer helping me
Idk what im gonna do with myself if I get denied again. Parents said I'm gonna have to just suck it up and work but I literally can't do that when I dissociate from every little stressor.
I've been declined for disability twice now and they say 3rd times a charm so I'm really hoping that's true.
And I have a lawyer helping me
Idk what im gonna do with myself if I get denied again. Parents said I'm gonna have to just suck it up and work but I literally can't do that when I dissociate from every little stressor.
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