Trying partial again today

[Seekingawayout]

I'm trying to calm myself and just commit. Right now waiting for others in my house to go to sleep (they have crazy sleep patterns). And need to pay some bills.
I'm thinking if I stop easing into it and just fall into it I'll have less chance to back out. That's my hope, anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hate how the hanging method certainly can be this difficult, it really does make it sound so much easier when you hear of all these people managing to succeed with it, and I so envy their courage. I've never actually attempted before as I would fear something going wrong, but anyway I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Someone123]

I hate how the hanging method certainly can be this difficult, it really does make it sound so much easier when you hear of all these people managing to succeed with it, and I so envy their courage.

Hanging is actually two methods- partial, which only works a small percent of the time but can be peaceful, and full, which is basicallly 100% sure to work if not interrupted and if the structure is solid, but it is very stressful. With both methods being rescued partway through can make you a vegetable.

 

[Seekingawayout]

I hate how the hanging method certainly can be this difficult, it really does make it sound so much easier when you hear of all these people managing to succeed with it, and I so envy their courage. I've never actually attempted before as I would fear something going wrong, but anyway I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

Thanks. I tried so much yesterday, and couldn't get past SI. At first I didn't really realize it was SI, and by the time I did realize it I was in full panic mode so every attempt made it worse.
So I'm hoping being calmer today and dropping into it will help.
I think it can be a quick and relatively painless way, but the mental barriers are stronger than most anticipate.

Hanging is actually two methods- partial, which only works a small percent of the time but can be peaceful, and full, which is basicallly 100% sure to work if not interrupted and if the structure is solid, but it is very stressful. With both methods being rescued partway through can make you a vegetable.

I would go for full if I had anywhere to do it. There are no places in my house, and the only trees that would actually work within walking distance are on people's property. I just don't feel right about subjecting some innocent person to my plans.

 

[VoidAlchemy]

Thanks. I tried so much yesterday, and couldn't get past SI. At first I didn't really realize it was SI, and by the time I did realize it I was in full panic mode so every attempt made it worse.
So I'm hoping being calmer today and dropping into it will help.
I think it can be a quick and relatively painless way, but the mental barriers are stronger than most anticipate.

I would go for full if I had anywhere to do it. There are no places in my house, and the only trees that would actually work within walking distance are on people's property. I just don't feel right about subjecting some innocent person to my plans.

Some people have gotten around this by getting crafty and building something ideal in a secluded area. Personally hanging is too painful for me (not in a physical sense but mentally because of childhood trama flashbacks on top of SI), but if it wasn't I would make an art scene of a failed game of hangman

 

[Seekingawayout]

Some people have gotten around this by getting crafty and building something ideal in a secluded area. Personally hanging is too painful for me (not in a physical sense but mentally because of childhood trama flashbacks on top of SI), but if it wasn't I would make an art scene of a failed game of hangman

I don't really have option to build anything. Plus, the fact that most of the property around me still belongs to someone .