GrumpyFrog
Exhausted
- Aug 23, 2020
- 1,913
Hey guys. Would appreciate advice or help.
Logically, I realize that trying to CTB impulsively is extremely risky. I've done it before, with awful consequences, my extremely distressed state and lack of proper preparation were the reason I not only failed but also did permanent damage to my body. And I am well informed and properly horrified of how it could've gone even worse.
Yet I don't know how to drag myself to the point when I will be adequately prepared. I will need not only to survive, but to hold a job and make money necessary to buy proper damn supplies. And I need to calm myself down enough to think clearly and make a good plan this time. Ideally, I would also like to have at least one relatively nice day before I go, but that's more me being picky, I know.
How do you make it to the point when it would be more reliable to try to CTB? Maybe someone can share advice from their personal experience?
Logically, I realize that trying to CTB impulsively is extremely risky. I've done it before, with awful consequences, my extremely distressed state and lack of proper preparation were the reason I not only failed but also did permanent damage to my body. And I am well informed and properly horrified of how it could've gone even worse.
Yet I don't know how to drag myself to the point when I will be adequately prepared. I will need not only to survive, but to hold a job and make money necessary to buy proper damn supplies. And I need to calm myself down enough to think clearly and make a good plan this time. Ideally, I would also like to have at least one relatively nice day before I go, but that's more me being picky, I know.
How do you make it to the point when it would be more reliable to try to CTB? Maybe someone can share advice from their personal experience?