I understand that feeling. I feel like my life is a huge knot that I can't undo. I spend a lot of time trying to think of ways to move forward in life and try this or that, but I always come up short.
I do believe that some people can start fresh or move forward but only if they have the right set of resources or supports.
I hope that you can do what's right for you, and if you want to keep trying to move forward that you do. Hope you're well.