Trouble after attempt

[khscarymovie]

Hello, on a Sunday a few weeks ago I had another suicide attempt, I did not allow myself to pass out and loose consciousness, and am still alive but wake up with immediate feelings of extreme suicidal ideation and am wanting to attempt again and loose consciousness and die. It can be hard getting through days while those feelings are attacking you, honestly I hope I go through with it soon but I am wondering if there is any mental note or phrase that me help ease your mind in stressed or tense times. I don't know if anything said here will help but I appreciate any response, thank you!