Discussion Trip Report : 13g Magic Shrooms & CTB

[BeijaFlor]

DISCLAIMER: this post is not intended to incentivate the use of any substances, it's merely for discussion on the topic.

alright, so...

i've had several entheogenic experiences before, yet never went for higher doses

i was looking for some sort of epifany, guidance, insight, an answer of any kind, some sort of closure

so i decided to go full blast on it w 13g dried (5g dried is considered a significant dosage already)

i grinded the shrooms, n encapsulated them on gel caps, to cut down the nausea sensation

i laid on my bed, n about half an hour later, it began

this soothing, off in the distance kinda mind-tickling feeling that slowly washes over you like a wave

for a while, i had internal dialogues (it never feels like a monologue) with... *shrugs* idk whom but, i cant remember much of what was talked about...

in my previous experiences, i've always had those colorful geomatric patterns typa visions but, not this time, which i found rather strange

this time, ive had vivid, open eyed visions which... were much more impactful, to say the least

so i got up, went to the living room n, as i stared at the mirror on the wall, i could see the shadow of my dog which was behind me, but...it looked like a cats shadow

and... when my dog walked away, her shadow was being pulled out of the cats shadow, but the cats shadow remained there.

i laid down on my couch, closed my eyes again... i cant remember what i saw then

as i slowly opened my eyes, i saw... this tiny being, walking over my hands with a magnifying glass, examining me

it looked extremely real... every detail

as i look behind me, the cats shadow was still there, siting on the floor, waging its tail n staring at me

at that moment, i felt like a child, i was spooked but in a good way, in awe... "holy shit, the cats still there!"

n i would turn my look away, then look at it again, geting similar reactions, until the third i did that, when i looked away, there were another 2 black cats on the couch with me

suddenly, i got this intense feeling that i had finaly done it, i was dead

as i stared at the ceiling, i saw another shadow on the walls, which looked like an old lady with an elongated head siting on a rocking chair, sideways

i looked around to see if there was anything making that shadow move but, i couldnt see it

it was past midnight, i had left the whole apt dark, with only candles lit here n there

this old lady, she... "told me", in my mind, that she was from another place, n so was i, and that i didnt had to feel scared about whatever happens in the end...

n then... as i walked back to my bedroom, i noticed my dog was sitting on my bed, pretty still and gazing at me, as if waiting for me to return

i got a really creepy feeling n, as i steped into the room, i saw my own body besides the wardrobe, already hanged, already dead, as that vision slowly faded away

i walked up to my bedrooms window, looking at the stars in the sky n... i noticed 3 bright, round lights flying around the sky in circles, dancing with one another...

as the experience went on, i kept geting these very enigmatic visions, with a feeling of hidden meanings

near the end, i laid on my bed, snuggled with my dog and cried my heart out, a mix of pain and joy

the tears wouldnt stop flowing, my pillow was drenched...

i fell asleep... and the next day, i came out of it trying to wrap my head around it but...

*sighs*

maybe i got too many answers...

eitherway...

i've been left with this... mysterious typa... intuition, gut feeling... that something was definetly "off" about reality

my days are numbered, i have about acouple of weeks left n... my plan is to CTB while on a trip

this time, i was just looking for closure though n... yeah

wow

if anybody has had similar experiences n would like to sharem, please feel free

thanks for reading

 

[EvisceratedJester]

i was looking for some sort of epifany, guidance, insight, an answer of any kind, some sort of closure

You do realize shrooms and psychedelics in general don't actually provide you guidance or answers, right? They are drugs. Any conclusions that you come to completely come down to you and those conclusions aren't necessarily going to be correct and change dramatically as time goes on. All psychedelics do is change the way your brain works, temporarily altering the way you think and process information. Otherwise, everything else comes down to you.

Hence why, for example, the conclusions that I came to during my first few trips are different from the ones I've come to now as my knowledge has grown, especially after taking that introductory to cognitive neuroscience class, lol. All this change happened over the course of several months.

The point is, you shouldn't treat shrooms as something that will provide you with answers and guidance, because they don't. What you get of it comes down completely to you and your own personal experiences and in many cases, some of the conclusions that you may come to while high can end up being dumb or even harmful irl. I've seen people come to really dumb takes after tripping before (and I mean to the point where their takes go against stuff that has large amounts of research on saying otherwise).

 

[deadbidaylight]

I don't have much to say besides that trip sounds absolutely fucking TERRIFYING.

 

[maniac116]

Holy shit!!! 13 grams? The most I've ever had is 7g & that was intense. It was great but intense, & nothing subtle about it. Usually 2.5-3.5g for me.
I love the closed eye geometrics too.

 

[Ixtab69]

DISCLAIMER: this post is not intended to incentivate the use of any substances, it's merely for discussion on the topic.

alright, so...

i've had several entheogenic experiences before, yet never went for higher doses

i was looking for some sort of epifany, guidance, insight, an answer of any kind, some sort of closure

so i decided to go full blast on it w 13g dried (5g dried is considered a significant dosage already)

i grinded the shrooms, n encapsulated them on gel caps, to cut down the nausea sensation

i laid on my bed, n about half an hour later, it began

this soothing, off in the distance kinda mind-tickling feeling that slowly washes over you like a wave

for a while, i had internal dialogues (it never feels like a monologue) with... *shrugs* idk whom but, i cant remember much of what was talked about...

in my previous experiences, i've always had those colorful geomatric patterns typa visions but, not this time, which i found rather strange

this time, ive had vivid, open eyed visions which... were much more impactful, to say the least

so i got up, went to the living room n, as i stared at the mirror on the wall, i could see the shadow of my dog which was behind me, but...it looked like a cats shadow

and... when my dog walked away, her shadow was being pulled out of the cats shadow, but the cats shadow remained there.

i laid down on my couch, closed my eyes again... i cant remember what i saw then

as i slowly opened my eyes, i saw... this tiny being, walking over my hands with a magnifying glass, examining me

it looked extremely real... every detail

as i look behind me, the cats shadow was still there, siting on the floor, waging its tail n staring at me

at that moment, i felt like a child, i was spooked but in a good way, in awe... "holy shit, the cats still there!"

n i would turn my look away, then look at it again, geting similar reactions, until the third i did that, when i looked away, there were another 2 black cats on the couch with me

suddenly, i got this intense feeling that i had finaly done it, i was dead

as i stared at the ceiling, i saw another shadow on the walls, which looked like an old lady with an elongated head siting on a rocking chair, sideways

i looked around to see if there was anything making that shadow move but, i couldnt see it

it was past midnight, i had left the whole apt dark, with only candles lit here n there

this old lady, she... "told me", in my mind, that she was from another place, n so was i, and that i didnt had to feel scared about whatever happens in the end...

n then... as i walked back to my bedroom, i noticed my dog was sitting on my bed, pretty still and gazing at me, as if waiting for me to return

i got a really creepy feeling n, as i steped into the room, i saw my own body besides the wardrobe, already hanged, already dead, as that vision slowly faded away

i walked up to my bedrooms window, looking at the stars in the sky n... i noticed 3 bright, round lights flying around the sky in circles, dancing with one another...

as the experience went on, i kept geting these very enigmatic visions, with a feeling of hidden meanings

near the end, i laid on my bed, snuggled with my dog and cried my heart out, a mix of pain and joy

the tears wouldnt stop flowing, my pillow was drenched...

i fell asleep... and the next day, i came out of it trying to wrap my head around it but...

*sighs*

maybe i got too many answers...

eitherway...

i've been left with this... mysterious typa... intuition, gut feeling... that something was definetly "off" about reality

my days are numbered, i have about acouple of weeks left n... my plan is to CTB while on a trip

this time, i was just looking for closure though n... yeah

wow

if anybody has had similar experiences n would like to sharem, please feel free

thanks for reading

tried to pm you but am not sure if I succeeded...what kind of "shroom" were you on?I understand there are quite a few...all in all your description very much reminds me of things I experience while on LSD

 

[BeijaFlor]

tried to pm you but am not sure if I succeeded...what kind of "shroom" were you on?I understand there are quite a few...all in all your description very much reminds me of things I experience while on LSD

it's a hybrid strain called Geppetto, a variation of the magic mushroom that originated from a cross between the Albino and Colombian Rust strains of Psilocybe cubensis.

You do realize shrooms and psychedelics in general don't actually provide you guidance or answers, right? They are drugs. Any conclusions that you come to completely come down to you and those conclusions aren't necessarily going to be correct and change dramatically as time goes on. All psychedelics do is change the way your brain works, temporarily altering the way you think and process information. Otherwise, everything else comes down to you.

Hence why, for example, the conclusions that I came to during my first few trips are different from the ones I've come to now as my knowledge has grown, especially after taking that introductory to cognitive neuroscience class, lol. All this change happened over the course of several months.

The point is, you shouldn't treat shrooms as something that will provide you with answers and guidance, because they don't. What you get of it comes down completely to you and your own personal experiences and in many cases, some of the conclusions that you may come to while high can end up being dumb or even harmful irl. I've seen people come to really dumb takes after tripping before (and I mean to the point where their takes go against stuff that has large amounts of research on saying otherwise).

 

[Ixtab69]

what kind of "shroom" was that?I understand there is quite a wide variety of these...your description does remind me of things I experience while on LSD

 

[BeijaFlor]

what kind of "shroom" was that?I understand there is quite a wide variety of these...your description does remind me of things I experience while on LSD

well, the main thing is its active component, psylocibin. the various different strains have different concentrations of it but, they are generaly all considered "magical"due to this component, which is what brings forth the experience.

 

[Ixtab69]

it's a hybrid strain called Geppetto, a variation of the magic mushroom that originated from a cross between the Albino and Colombian Rust strains of Psilocybe cubensis.

am also into McKenna quite a bit...so many overlaps and intersections

well, the main thing is its active component, psylocibin. the various different strains have different concentrations of it but, they are generaly all considered "magical"due to this component, which is what brings forth the experience.

I experienced that in Mexico where I spent quite a few years

 

[EvisceratedJester]

What?

 

[divinemistress36]

Holy shit thats a lot of shrooms..sounds terrifying and spiritual at the same time. I only micdose them so its a way lower dose than tripping