tried to drown myself, not the vibe

[MidnightDream]

Tried to drown myself tonight in the bath. Managed to stay under for a while, but then my limbs just kinda started flailing about ?? like my body started panicking even tho my mind was focused?? In the end i just had to come up for air. Like, SI just took over. I had no say in the matter. My body in that moment was willing to do anything, endure anything, just to get oxygen. Kinda crazy, tbh.
Now my chest just hurts and I'm kinda short of breath.


Figured since I'm too scared to just ,,, get the damn bus ,,, that i might just.. induce it instead
if only it were that easy lol. Has shown me tho that my death will need to be quick. No time for my body to panic and stop things. Lots to think about now

 

[FuneralCry]

That method sounds so unbearable to me, I really wish it's not so difficult to die. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Agon321]

Have you used any additives?
If not, unfortunately the chance was very small.

You have to come up with another plan.
Drowning can be effective, but it must be done the right way.
Unfortunately, I am not able to help you substantively because I do not have much knowledge about this method.

 

[rozeske]

Most attempt drowning with some sort of a sedative. Your body doesn't let you drown yourself without a fight.