Tried to cut and ended up in hospital

[ifeelsobad]

I tried to die by cutting. I thought it was working because I was falling asleep but it didn't and I had to go to the hospital. I don't know what else I can do. I'm to scared to do anything that stops breathing or makes you throw up like taking pills or hanging. I can't drive. The only thing I really knew how to do was cutting.

 

[Shadowlord900]

I know you said you can't drive, but do you have other means of traveling? Jumping could be an option if there's a location high enough that you can access. I imagine if you could overcome your SI and pain to cut yourself enough to make yourself nearly fall asleep, I would think you wouldn't have much difficulty overcoming your SI to jump. (I tried jumping, but couldn't overcome my SI.)

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

I tried to go by cutting, too. It was so easy to slice open my entire forearm, and in the moment really didn't hurt, but the bleeding takes SO LONG. I wish I would've waited it out and not dialed 911…perhaps there would've been a chance. I'll never know.

It does make you wonder, though, after experiencing such a thing:

"If I can do THAT, what else…?"

 

[FuneralCry]

Cutting is well known for not being a reliable ctb method, it's certainly not recommended for ctb. But I do understand your frustrations in finding it so difficult to ctb, I find it awful how we have to struggle so much to leave this world. It's certainly a prison like existence when it's this unnecessarily difficult to ctb, but I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[ifeelsobad]

I tried to go by cutting, too. It was so easy to slice open my entire forearm, and in the moment really didn't hurt, but the bleeding takes SO LONG. I wish I would've waited it out and not dialed 911…perhaps there would've been a chance. I'll never know.

It does make you wonder, though, after experiencing such a thing:

"If I can do THAT, what else…?"

I didn't call 911 but my parents did

I know you said you can't drive, but do you have other means of traveling? Jumping could be an option if there's a location high enough that you can access. I imagine if you could overcome your SI and pain to cut yourself enough to make yourself nearly fall asleep, I would think you wouldn't have much difficulty overcoming your SI to jump. (I tried jumping, but couldn't overcome my SI.)

I would be to scared to jump. The reason I can cut is I've been doing it since I was 14 so it's easy for me im used to it