bunnii
just a little guy
- Feb 16, 2023
- 55
This is my first post here so sorry if anything is weird or wrong. I just need somewhere to vent.
For the past few weeks, my urge to ctb has been growing and growing. It's especially hard to fight when my bf is at work and I'm left home alone. I usually cope with sh and weed, but even that isn't helping, especially since I feel like my sh isn't deep enough. Yesterday, before I joined this forum, I tried hanging myself from my bedroom door. I chickened out at the last second and put the rope away. I feel like such a coward. Does anyone else struggle with this? I feel so ready to leave but doing the act itself takes more guts than I have.
For the past few weeks, my urge to ctb has been growing and growing. It's especially hard to fight when my bf is at work and I'm left home alone. I usually cope with sh and weed, but even that isn't helping, especially since I feel like my sh isn't deep enough. Yesterday, before I joined this forum, I tried hanging myself from my bedroom door. I chickened out at the last second and put the rope away. I feel like such a coward. Does anyone else struggle with this? I feel so ready to leave but doing the act itself takes more guts than I have.