Tried self-harm, feel good

[donquixote42]

Today I tried self-harm for the first time. It felt good. Wasn't too deep, just minor scratches and a little bit of blood :)

I feel okay now, let's see how it works out.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I've found that it always feels better on my wrists or forearms. But I try really hard to stick to places I can easily hide because....well, I'm kind of ashamed and scared of the consequences.

If you plan on continuing to self harm, please try to stay safe and take care of yourself. Cleaning whatever you use, properly cleaning and banaging the wounds. And be aware that self harm can escalate very quickly. It can be easy to lose control - coming from personal experience.

 

[Soulless Angel]

the tops of my arms are covered in scars, and new wounds, a place I can hide them, Self harm is exactly that, in mental, physically and emotional, yet damn it can help!

As @BitterlyAlive say's though, if you carry on, do do it carefully and look after yourself

 

[valentine]

Please be safe. It can get very addictive. It helped me a lot at the time but I regret it a lot now. A lot of scars never fade and it can be really hard to deal with.

 

[Toptock]

Also be super careful about sweat, if you do it to an area that has a lot of activity make sure you prevent sweat from getting in there as much as you can.

 

[I_love_to_bake]

a possible alternative you can consider is submerging your head in water. It is a stress relief tactic that I use now, instead of self harming. I hit myself sometimes and pinch myself but I haven't cut in 6 years. I hope you all the best and remember that your scars might never heal. My arms are both covered and it has prevented me from swimming without a swimming shirt on. It also prevented me from becoming a fire fighter and joining the military.
Take care of yourself❤

 

[airboy_a380]

I've slit my wrists all over, took plenty stitches and never found the right artery to kill myself. Your cuts are not too deep, that's more like a cat scratch. If you planning on doing deeper I advise you it's gonna hurt. And it won't prob kill you.

 

[donquixote42]

Thank you for the tips everyone. I will keep them at heart, fortunately I do not have tendency to self-harm (outside of perhaps pinching skin or biting lips/nails) when sober and I am usually good at moderating my drinking sessions. Yesterday's experience was hopefully just an outlier to the typical trend. I also carry around a small bottle of isopropyl alcohol for disinfecting my hands (COVID) that can double as a wound disinfectant I suppose.

@airboy_a380
I do understand that slicing wrists isn't the best way to commit suicide, fortunately you can rest assured I am not (and never have been) actively suicidal (although I deal with suicidal ideation on a recurring basis)

 

[airboy_a380]

Thank you for the tips everyone. I will keep them at heart, fortunately I do not have tendency to self-harm (outside of perhaps pinching skin or biting lips/nails) when sober and I am usually good at moderating my drinking sessions. Yesterday's experience was hopefully just an outlier to the typical trend. I also carry around a small bottle of isopropyl alcohol for disinfecting my hands (COVID) that can double as a wound disinfectant I suppose.

@airboy_a380
I do understand that slicing wrists isn't the best way to commit suicide, fortunately you can rest assured I am not (and never have been) actively suicidal (although I deal with suicidal ideation on a recurring basis)

Yeah I got you, your into self harming, just don't get to the point that you need stitches. Just an advice. I always have to wear long sleeves when I used to work.

 

[Tigeress Lost]

I've slit my wrists all over, took plenty stitches and never found the right artery to kill myself. Your cuts are not too deep, that's more like a cat scratch. If you planning on doing deeper I advise you it's gonna hurt. And it won't prob kill you.

Hi Friend
Ohh Don't Say That gezzz you poor thing but I completely understand why
Self harm is not new to me either but I've stopped for 2 months as decided to ctb with SN
Yeah relieved you do feel but it's painful and dangerous and really hurts 24/7
:(
The worst I've don't is treated my hand as an ash tray still got the scar
Peace & Hugs

Today I tried self-harm for the first time. It felt good. Wasn't too deep, just minor scratches and a little bit of blood :)

I feel okay now, let's see how it works out.

Hi Friend
Sorry you had to choose this path I have myself done it and bear scars you feel good as your body & mind feels via the cuts the bleeding you're getting some relief from your inner pain
But sadly than it starts stinging and is painful 24:7 you need to care for the wounds cause you can risk infection I know it's not easy I mean I have used my hand as an ash tray and my body is covered in scars and if I'm asked I say a cat scratched me
I hide them from people summer is here I wear long shirts
Pls try the ice or rubber band method I've not self harmed for months why cause it gets me nowhere

my worst memory is being in a Mental ward and going outside for leave I came back my arms cut to shreds by razors guess what the staff did ?
A nurse gives me a tray with cotton wool wipes and dressings and says clean that up please I mean wtf call that care
So you see in the end I scarred myself got humiliated and I'm still in the same situation same pain now :(

Peace & Hugs

 

[flatearth]

i hope this isn't a weird question, but what did it feel like? (aside from just "good") i want to try, it seems like a good quiet way to release pain
and how did you get the courage to do it? i have tried before, but when i do i get scared and just look at the razor and cry because i can't.

 

[Blackpoolbootz]

I got one of these electronic spot removers of internet. Hurts a bit produces a scar and sort of works for me gets me though the moments when really feel like hurting myself. Have to work out what works for you

 

[CuddleHug]

i hope this isn't a weird question, but what did it feel like? (aside from just "good") i want to try, it seems like a good quiet way to release pain
and how did you get the courage to do it? i have tried before, but when i do i get scared and just look at the razor and cry because i can't.

I think you will be disappointed if you try. It helps calm down my thoughts, yes, but I also feel guilty every time and it only causes more negative feelings. Not worth it in my opinion. Once you have tried it, you get addicted and stop caring about the long-term effects.

If you really do want to try it, put away the razor and try with a sewing pin. Sounds silly, but you can etch really hard with it and it still won't get deep at all. It will feel somewhat like (shallow) cutting and leave a mark, but heal in a few days and leave no scar. Also won't bleed (maybe a little) or require tending to afterwards.

 

[Ren Elsie Jewelria]

Please be safe. It can get very addictive. It helped me a lot at the time but I regret it a lot now. A lot of scars never fade and it can be really hard to deal with.

I second that. First it feels great, all that relief, bad emotions leaving your body with leaking blood and then it becomes an addiction leaving you scarred.

 

[flatearth]

I think you will be disappointed if you try. It helps calm down my thoughts, yes, but I also feel guilty every time and it only causes more negative feelings. Not worth it in my opinion. Once you have tried it, you get addicted and stop caring about the long-term effects.

If you really do want to try it, put away the razor and try with a sewing pin. Sounds silly, but you can etch really hard with it and it still won't get deep at all. It will feel somewhat like (shallow) cutting and leave a mark, but heal in a few days and leave no scar. Also won't bleed (maybe a little) or require tending to afterwards.

thanks for the advice!

 

[kcn2020]

I will never understand self-harm... I am suicidal and I hate myself too, but I want quick death. I don't understand why some people inflict themselves such seances of torture.

 

[CuddleHug]

I will never understand self-harm... I am suicidal and I hate myself too, but I want quick death. I don't understand why some people inflict themselves such seances of torture.

Self-harm has nothing to do with death. It's a common misconception that people self-harm because they want to die, when in fact it's almost always because they don't want to. It's a coping mechanism that takes away some of the pain that makes us want to die.

 

[donquixote42]

i hope this isn't a weird question, but what did it feel like? (aside from just "good") i want to try, it seems like a good quiet way to release pain
and how did you get the courage to do it? i have tried before, but when i do i get scared and just look at the razor and cry because i can't.

It satisfied an itch that I had at the time - an urge to feel something... anything really. Yesterday I felt the urge again, despite not drinking a drop of alcohol. I took a knife from the kitchen, caressed it a little and slid it gracefully all the way from the tip of my fingers through the palm of my hand and past the wrist. My heart began racing a little and I put the instrument back into its resting place. It's a pretty surreal experience, but as others say, it does feel pretty addicting and you have to resist the temptation, which obviously is a lot easier when you aren't intoxicated.

As for the courage, when you're intoxicated it kind of just comes naturally. Which is why I don't drink that much, haha.

 

[flatearth]

It satisfied an itch that I had at the time - an urge to feel something... anything really. Yesterday I felt the urge again, despite not drinking a drop of alcohol. I took a knife from the kitchen, caressed it a little and slid it gracefully all the way from the tip of my fingers through the palm of my hand and past the wrist. My heart began racing a little and I put the instrument back into its resting place. It's a pretty surreal experience, but as others say, it does feel pretty addicting and you have to resist the temptation, which obviously is a lot easier when you aren't intoxicated.

As for the courage, when you're intoxicated it kind of just comes naturally. Which is why I don't drink that much, haha.

thanks for replying
i'll have to try that

 

[BPD Barbie]

I will never understand self-harm... I am suicidal and I hate myself too, but I want quick death. I don't understand why some people inflict themselves such seances of torture.

For me, its in order to be able to get a release, to be able to feel something, to almost be able to feel alive. It's not about suicide, it has nothing to do with that. There are far less painful methods and more effective methods to choose from.

 

[Toptock]

Agreed, it's not about the suicide, it's a specific kind of pain that scratches a specific itch I now have.