Venting tried contacting helpline and got disappointed, what was i thinking?

[dinosavr]

I needed help with getting through the night with active intence suicidal thoughts so I decided to contact a helpline. But I was too scared to call cause I can barely call my own mother lol, so I chose the chat option.
I didnt even manage to describe my story really shortly, like, two sentences max, and some man wrote "before we start, let me tell you that I finish my duty at 2am and that I'd have to talk to someone else and after idk 15 seconds he closed the chat. What the fuck??? Like, did I do something wrong? I wasn't born as McQueen :') (cause if I was, I definitely wouldn't wanna kill myself hahah) but I wasnt that slow either. It's fucked up. How do they expect us to recover when they treat us like this? I'm outttt. Never making that mistake again.

 

[Not A Fan]

Has anyone here actually had a good experience with those people? I don't know. I always just assumed it would be terrible but not in the way you described. Aren't they volunteers? Why volunteer if you're gonna be a total dick...?

 

[Hotsackage]

Idk we should start our own crisis help line, you'd get better advice

 

[misatosdiary]

I feel you and personally Ive never heard a good story from those helplines

 

[F@#$]

Sounds about right. Those "help" lines are worthless.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

They should call them ratlines. Because the sole purpose of their existence is to rat on callers to the authorities, if they even sense an ounce of self-harm danger. That 1-800-273-8255 is the dumbest song ever made. I don't think that stupid kid knew what he was actually rapping about.

 

[iamanavalanche]

i also had a similar experience. while talking to them on the verge of an attempt, the chat just closed on me and i couldn't access it again. i ended up thinking it was so stupid i got unmotivated to carry on bahah

 

[dinosavr]

Just a quick update: my hypocritical ass went back to the chat section and tried again. I talked to a different guy who didn't immediately hang up on me. I described how I felt and what's my situation. And obviously even though he wasn't able to help me for real, it felt good to get it out of my system. He was really supportive, for some reason I felt like he cared for real.
In the meantime my sleeping pills started to work and I decided to thank him and go to sleep. I still wanted to relapse, but he said he'd be glad if I didn't. So I didn't. So maybe it's not all bad after all?

 

[b1cycle]

Just a quick update: my hypocritical ass went back to the chat section and tried again. I talked to a different guy who didn't immediately hang up on me. I described how I felt and what's my situation. And obviously even though he wasn't able to help me for real, it felt good to get it out of my system. He was really supportive, for some reason I felt like he cared for real.
In the meantime my sleeping pills started to work and I decided to thank him and go to sleep. I still wanted to relapse, but he said he'd be glad if I didn't. So I didn't. So maybe it's not all bad after all?

You go this I hope you cling to the hope you have and power through it.

I hope you get a good nights sleep.

 

[Trismegistus_13]

Hey there, I'm sorry you had such a bad interaction the first time. I wonder if the first guy had a long shift. I imagine the job can be very emotionally draining. Still, he really should jave phrased what he said a lot better.

And I'm glad you tried again and had a productive talk with the other person! I hear a lot of mixed things about these chatlines. At least for me, I think of it as, a 50% chance of it helping me feel a bit better is still better than the 0% chance if i don't call at all.

 

[lnlybnny]

Most of the times I get extremely lazy to talk about my "situation" on these hotlines, but I do it sometimes (rarely). They just repeat everything I say but sometimes it helps me feel more at ease after venting and crying it all out.