fkyou
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- Oct 1, 2022
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Traumatic thoughts and views about the world take the joy out of everything. I noticed that when I don't believe what's in my head and I'm optimistic i regain my ability to see/feel joy in everything. And when these negative point of views come back and I believe them everything becomes black and white tasteless.you see no beauty in anything, relationships, people,nature,music, romance.nothing.its like it's either 100% or 0. its like your nervous system shuts down.but so quickly and Easley, fluctuating between this and that in seconds .depending on your mood,if the negative thoughts come back , life is now bland and painful until you decide in your head that everything is good. One moment I'm happy and everything is okay the next im miserable.its weird how this can happen.it makes you realize.the world is still as joyful as it always was.its you who is feeling awful for nothing. Torturing your self for nothing.and maybe what you exhausted your self thinking about is false/an illusion and you ended up throwing away a life of joy for nothing.you hate yourself.just because you choose to focus on the negative you threw away everything together..and you're left with nothing but utter guilt.
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