Morituri_Te_Salutant
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- Apr 17, 2021
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It's been years since certain bad things had happened to my life. Nothing much, just getting physical, verbal abuse and negligence from the ones you trusted like your mother and friends. IRL and Online. The reason why I mention online there as well is because I wasn't (still not, but I try to defy this rule every now and then) allowed to leave home during my childhood years; so most of the things that I've learnt about the outside world, as well any "mental developments" that happen during adolescence come in the form of my tutors and the internet. Mostly the latter I'd say. Asides from my parents raging at me every now and then back then.
Still, even though years have passed, and almost everything changed; those events still resurface into my mind. Sometimes I just let it happen, pass through me and get depressed; other times I try to shake it off by diverting my attention to something else.
I really wonder what's the point of still remembering it. I guess so that you know who wronged you and how?
Sorry if this all seemed vague. I have a hard time opening up to people anymore, every time I did that I'd get slammed shut at some point; getting called all sorts of names. Besides, bad people roam around this forum, so it's not like you can't be too careful either...
Still, even though years have passed, and almost everything changed; those events still resurface into my mind. Sometimes I just let it happen, pass through me and get depressed; other times I try to shake it off by diverting my attention to something else.
I really wonder what's the point of still remembering it. I guess so that you know who wronged you and how?
Sorry if this all seemed vague. I have a hard time opening up to people anymore, every time I did that I'd get slammed shut at some point; getting called all sorts of names. Besides, bad people roam around this forum, so it's not like you can't be too careful either...