Transness

[northoverhill]

Hey all
It's a thing I've noticed that a fair number of people on here are trans, as am I. I'm curious to know if this is a factor in why you found your way here or if your desire to ctb and you being trans are entirely separate.

For me they're definitely linked. On my worst, most dysphoric days, I get completely fed up and dissociate, tell myself I'll never achieve what I want so I stop taking my medicine and give up for a few days, contemplating suicide and returning to this forum. I am in the middle of such an episode now. Is this normal? Anyone else relate to this?

Not a very long post. Just feeling a bit isolated and lonely, and would love to talk to someone. Thanks for your time <3

 

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Transgender Support Megathread

This is a Megathread where members who are or suspect they are transgender can post their experiences, vent, connect with others in a similar situation and give/receive support. You can post as often or as infrequently as you like. Share as much or as little as you feel comfortable with.

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[catastrophix]

I'm nonbinary, but I can definitely relate. I also go through periods of time where I lose all hope and stop trying, and it can sometimes be tied to my dysphoria. I'm so sorry to hear that your gender dysphoria is so intense. I really hope you can find some sort of relief from it. If you'd like to talk or vent about anything, just let me know! :]

 

[bombasleep]

Hey all
It's a thing I've noticed that a fair number of people on here are trans, as am I. I'm curious to know if this is a factor in why you found your way here or if your desire to ctb and you being trans are entirely separate.

For me they're definitely linked. On my worst, most dysphoric days, I get completely fed up and dissociate, tell myself I'll never achieve what I want so I stop taking my medicine and give up for a few days, contemplating suicide and returning to this forum. I am in the middle of such an episode now. Is this normal? Anyone else relate to this?

Not a very long post. Just feeling a bit isolated and lonely, and would love to talk to someone. Thanks for your time <3

I have the same issue, it seems like my dyshoria hits me like a train some weeks. I think its because I repress it so much in my daily life, yk try to ignore it, so it pops out in a way I can't ignore it. This leads to the weeks where im scrolling this site everyday. Anyways I'm sorry you have to deal with this, I know how it feels to tell yourself that you can never achieve what you want and how exhausting is can be. It is really hard for my brain to acknowledge that the way i'm feeling can never really leave, just get a bit better. It really is a hopeless feeling, like a pit your stomach when you think about it. I hope you can escape your pain soon, i'm here if you ever need to talk to someone

 

[northoverhill]

I have the same issue, it seems like my dyshoria hits me like a train some weeks. I think its because I repress it so much in my daily life, yk try to ignore it, so it pops out in a way I can't ignore it. This leads to the weeks where im scrolling this site everyday. Anyways I'm sorry you have to deal with this, I know how it feels to tell yourself that you can never achieve what you want and how exhausting is can be. It is really hard for my brain to acknowledge that the way i'm feeling can never really leave, just get a bit better. It really is a hopeless feeling, like a pit your stomach when you think about it. I hope you can escape your pain soon, i'm here if you ever need to talk to someone

I totally feel you. I'm sure my friends would say I'm horribly pessimistic and negative, but I do sadly think that I subconsciously ignore all the aspects of myself that make me not pass in my day-to-day. Like especially when I look at myself in my phone camera which automatically softens my skin, I'm kinda telling myself I'm prettier than I actually am, then I'll be in work going about my day and I'll walk past a mirror and genuinely be shocked by the reality for a second - "oh this is what I actually look like in a normal setting to other people". My jaw is too wide, my chin is too strong, my skin is rough, my hair is frayed and messy.
Dysphoria is one of the cruelest things we can feel, I'm sorry you have to deal with it too.
I'm happy to talk whenever you need, thanks for reaching out <3

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Transgender Support Megathread

This is a Megathread where members who are or suspect they are transgender can post their experiences, vent, connect with others in a similar situation and give/receive support. You can post as often or as infrequently as you like. Share as much or as little as you feel comfortable with.

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oh thanks! I'm still new here, I wasn't aware of this thread, thanks so much