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silentvoice
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- Nov 23, 2019
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I don't think anyone really cares but I feel like I need to let my feelings out because I don't have anyone to talk to about this. I hate myself, more specifically I hate my body. I wish I was born a girl, I wish that I could've had the childhood I always wanted, and I wish that I can look at myself in the mirror without feeling like an alien in my own body.
I tried transitioning and it only helped a little bit. Hormones can only change so much but to me they only mask the parts I hate. I destroyed my voice so that I can sound female, now I can't talk without pain. Even when not in use I feel pain. It's agony not being able to talk or laugh or cry without pain. I can't take it anymore.
I tried living but I just can't when I'm stuck like this. I just want to be free. I hope that I get another chance in a body that I can feel comfortable in, so that I can have the life that I can't have. I'm sorry for wasting your time.
I tried transitioning and it only helped a little bit. Hormones can only change so much but to me they only mask the parts I hate. I destroyed my voice so that I can sound female, now I can't talk without pain. Even when not in use I feel pain. It's agony not being able to talk or laugh or cry without pain. I can't take it anymore.
I tried living but I just can't when I'm stuck like this. I just want to be free. I hope that I get another chance in a body that I can feel comfortable in, so that I can have the life that I can't have. I'm sorry for wasting your time.