Thanks for the advice
Thanks for the advice,
I'm in the uk it's hard to get what I need for the sn method.
I have exit bag with nitrogen. Had one very close attempt. Had strange tingling in hands vision narrowed and I flinched.
Would quite like to travel abroad somewhere, have a little adventure. Check in to nice hotel. in the Hope's I can buy what I need.
Peace love
Hey, I am in the UK. I've decided I am going to get Amitryptiline, which you can order online. On the regular internet you can get it. You can probably also get it in some places abroad - though most places it will be prescription only.
the other stuff I will need with it I will get on the dark web.
I've realised Fentanyl is too much faff - because it seems like you have to inject it, and I don't think I can handle that. But Amitryptiline and sleeping tablets look good.
I'm gonna make myself a little exit box, and it might just help me stick around longer, because I will have the relief of knowing where the effing door is.
Ps I did a callout to people on FB asking for a sample of Tramadol - as I've heard it is good for treatment resistant depression.
This stupid friend of mine said she could send me a "Tramadol Fairy" then she sent me a Christmas card of a fairy with no Tramadol in it.
I was so pissed off, I put the card in the bin. I'd told her it wasn't a joke - that I am really desperate and suicidal and looking for something that might help - so when this stupid fairy card arrived with no little pill, was really annoyed.
I think I can only get Tramadol to test it off the dark net, which I am trying to get onto, but it is complicated!