-Raven's Night-
autistic/metalhead/wanna join the 27 club
- Jan 31, 2020
- 66
shit I know that I have done many things wrong. like mentally breakdown at places with crowd of people. like commenting on a song I like which is about suicidal feelings but didn't really ctb. and like cried three times in two days in Chinese New Year when everyone (here in China) should stay happy and smile and be hopeful about the future. And why I'm judged again and again! They don't know me but made the conclusion that I think being suicidal and depressed (and autistic and social anxiety and traumatized and addicted and hallucinating and ...) is cool???? like I end up like this is because I think it's cool??? like being autistic since I was born is because it's cool? I never asked to be born. I know I'm fucking imperfect and ruined a good life and maybe that's what I deserve but I just don't understand why those who doesn't feel suicidal at all would judge so harshly like this. Maybe because there WERE guys who copy and paste those sad depressed sentences and post in the comments to gain likes and fulfill their shallow vanity, but I never did that, and shame on those who pretends to feel this way and then become predators who feast on those suffering people. But why it's ME who pay for THEIR immature and stupid behaviors? And please, non-suicidal people who think themselves smart, positive, loving life, can you fucking mind your own business and stop judging??????????
and I apologize that it's my fault hmm I'm still alive and sorry! you satisfied???
sorry for such an emotional outburst... and have to say I appreciate that there's such a place like SS that where suicidal people never be judged and get the feeling validated.
and I apologize that it's my fault hmm I'm still alive and sorry! you satisfied???
sorry for such an emotional outburst... and have to say I appreciate that there's such a place like SS that where suicidal people never be judged and get the feeling validated.