Sorry for my late replies. I've been having anxiety attacks all day. I haven't been able to eat, and I'm throwing up bile constantly. I've lost 4 kg in a week, and that's quite a lot when I'm already underweight. I've been in such a bad shape that I haven't really been able to be active here. I hope I get better in the days to come.
Hello Lotus I am so sorry for your anxiety from this.
Can you write down for the faculty Head that you were promised by (name of tutor) what you told us here in your post? Tell the Faculty Head how you suffer with anxiety and how this caused you an attack. Ask for their discretion snd ask that what was promised is delivered to thise of you who had technical problems during the exam.
If possible try to look on the college website for disability and how they claim to support students woth disabilities. That should make your case stronger.
Im studying law over here (when I recover i will be back to it) and my end goal will be to give a voice to anyone who feels their voice hasn't been heard.
I personally do things All in writing as people can forget a phone call but not a letter. Sending you Hugs.
Thanks for your kind words. I've tried to reach out to the faculty again, but it's like they've put up a wall and are not receptive to any further feedbacks. I will look into what my options are. I have the option to complain, but then I won't get my result, so it's a risky move if it's any chance that I will pass the exam. I will first talk to my psychiatrist, and then a neutral person at the university tomorrow that helps in cases like this. Then I have 3 weeks to decide if I want to complain. I've got most of the details in written form now, so I have documentation if necessary.
I'm glad to hear that you're planning to help those who aren't heard when you get back to your studies. You sound like a really nice person with a lot of empathy. Thanks for replying and supporting me.
It sounds like you've had a very stressful day. I am so sorry that you had technical issues and it messed the whole exam up. I would send an email to whichever professor is in charge of the exam (and perhaps the Department Chair if you don't think that professor will not take it seriously), explaining what had happened (technical issues while taking the exam, reached out immediately, was told to address it at the end of the day, but then no one was there) and asking for a time to meet tomorrow to discuss what the options are. I think it's important to have it documented in writing on the day of the exam as well as to make it clear to the person(s) who can help to rectify it what had happened and the efforts you made.
I know that not all college instructors are like me, but if this happened to one of my students, we would fix it -- no big deal. Things like this happen all the time, and if I told someone that I can't deal with it tonight, that would literally mean that I can't deal with it tonight, but would do so tomorrow. Please don't feel humiliated. Really, these things happen. Write the email.
Thank you so much for your understanding. It was very stressful indeed. I've done what you've said, but again, the faculty isn't very interested in hearing this right now. They are not interested in a solution whatsoever, so my option is to give a formal complaint or just wait for the result (1 month is a long time with my anxiety troubles).
I appreciate your kind words and suggestions. I wish my faculty had more people like you. I feel so alone in this.
It sounds like you are capable of intense concentration and focus. This would make you vulnerable to a tendency to put all of your "eggs" in one basket. When something happens to the basket, it can be overwhelming. You might try to protect yourself by allocating some of your emotional resources to activities unrelated to your educational objectives.
I knew an immigrant who was working on his PhD when his advisor told him that he would never get his degree and the advisor would essentially use him as a slave to produce work that the advisor would claim credit for. The guy finally gave up and went to work in industry.
There are people who will do things that are unfair. If you make a 100% emotional investment in something someone else controls, you risk an emotional catastrophe if things do not go well. With financial investments a diversified portfolio is usually recommended. The same might be advised for emotional investments.
Thank you, and you're absolutely right. I know that I have a tendency to focus on one thing, that it's almost overwhelming, and if something goes wrong I feel like everything has fallen apart. I'm an expert on catastrophic thinking. I will try to protect myself with the suggestions you mention. I know I should do it, but it's tougher than one would think, and I'm just so exhausted and paralyzed with anxiety.
Thanks for your inputs. I can really relate to what you're saying, and I know I need to protect myself from these things. I will try to take it up with my psychiatrist tomorrow.
