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kane
Student
- Jun 26, 2020
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I find it extremely hard to think rationally about suicide. I'm terrified of death, and I'm not sure there are any circumstances that would drive me to actually ctb, no matter how bad the pain got. But I would like to develop some control over that, so I'm not forced to endure the worst this life has to offer.
What I struggle with is identifying points at which suicide would become the sensible/rational choice. The few public figures I've heard who take suicide seriously have focused on chronic/terminal illnesses, reasoning that pain, loss of function, and no hope of recovery justify suicide.
I'm not terminally ill, but I am physically uncomfortable or in low level pain much of the time. While it's possible that might improve with treatment, experience suggests it only gets worse as I age. There are still little things I enjoy in life, but year on year that is slowly overwhelmed by suffering. I would say that I'm chronically depressed, and I'm extremely anxious most of the time. I also have no plausible hope of forming meaningful connections with others, so there's very little to make tolerating suffering seem worthwhile.
Has anyone come across any writers/thinkers/philosophers who address suicide in a detailed and rational way (rather than through an absurdist/existentialist lens)? It would help so much to have some framework to judge my circumstances more clearly, unclouded by emotional fluctuations and fear of death.
What I struggle with is identifying points at which suicide would become the sensible/rational choice. The few public figures I've heard who take suicide seriously have focused on chronic/terminal illnesses, reasoning that pain, loss of function, and no hope of recovery justify suicide.
I'm not terminally ill, but I am physically uncomfortable or in low level pain much of the time. While it's possible that might improve with treatment, experience suggests it only gets worse as I age. There are still little things I enjoy in life, but year on year that is slowly overwhelmed by suffering. I would say that I'm chronically depressed, and I'm extremely anxious most of the time. I also have no plausible hope of forming meaningful connections with others, so there's very little to make tolerating suffering seem worthwhile.
Has anyone come across any writers/thinkers/philosophers who address suicide in a detailed and rational way (rather than through an absurdist/existentialist lens)? It would help so much to have some framework to judge my circumstances more clearly, unclouded by emotional fluctuations and fear of death.
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