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OutOfTheVoid

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Feb 10, 2023
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prolly wont kill me prolly will only mildly trip or fall asleep at most but who knows maybe something will go 'wrong' fingers crossed
 
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Hello people ❤️
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Thoughts are with you ❤️
 
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OutOfTheVoid

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Feb 10, 2023
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prolly wont kill me prolly will only mildly trip or fall asleep at most but who knows maybe something will go 'wrong' fingers crossed
btw what i took was just 1.5mg xanax, 600mg gabapentin, 210mg dxm, and 225mg dph. not lethal doses by any means, but hey maybe the combination could have a 'bad' interaction. i like playing risks with my life, even if the risk is relatively unlikely. the mere possibility (however small) that i could die right here right now comforts me
 
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Lost, wanting out.
Feb 7, 2023
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xanax, dxm and dph as far as i'm aware don't really work together, but dxm and dph can be... not a fun roller-coaster if you aren't prepared. Hallucinating spiders and shit while dissociating & being numbed out isn't fun for most. Hope you're ok OP.
 
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existenceisacurse

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Jan 17, 2023
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xanax, dxm and dph as far as i'm aware don't really work together, but dxm and dph can be... not a fun roller-coaster if you aren't prepared. Hallucinating spiders and shit while dissociating & being numbed out isn't fun for most. Hope you're ok OP.
Damn I once took 800mg of dph and it was a nightmare
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I do understand why you would find the thought of being gone from this world to be comforting, at least to me it certainly sounds so ideal finally being free from existing and it's very understandable hoping that you die from taking these pills. But anyway, I wish you the best of luck in whatever happens.
 
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OutOfTheVoid

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Feb 10, 2023
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How are you doing OP?
just woke up after losing consciousness. im still alive unfortunately. but im also still pretty high af rn and tripping. didnt expect this to be this much. sleeping with no dreams is like not existing for a while. i also feel amazing and incredibly euphoric. even though im existing again. i dont regret taking the pills, i feel no guilt or shame. im so happy
just woke up after losing consciousness. im still alive unfortunately. but im also still pretty high af rn and tripping. didnt expect this to be this much. sleeping with no dreams is like not existing for a while. i also feel amazing and incredibly euphoric. even though im existing again. i dont regret taking the pills, i feel no guilt or shame. im so happy
wish i took more tho. i kinda wish i took all the pills i have and died. but i dont regret taking the pills i did. i am happy and i want to die.

also omg i am hallucinating. like full on external visual hallucinations. and vivid internal hallucinations. this is incredible. i love these hallicinations. i feel no pain, no shame, no guilt, no regret. i feel euphoric. i love this so much

anyway im gonna listen to boris and dissociate into the void
 
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OutOfTheVoid

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Feb 10, 2023
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sooo i fell back asleep and slept for all yesterday basically, i woke up last night abt 24 hours after i dosed (still considerably high/trippy too). i was basically delirious and going in and out of consciousness for that whole 24 hour period. i then went back to sleep and just woke up a little bit ago. wish i could sleep forever. but i just took some amphetamine so i will be awake today

cant believe i liked dph so much. it was my first time taking any more than 100mg. i had an amazing time all the way, my only disappointment is that im still alive.
 
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I took 2mg xans 4mg rivotril and 5mg ativan yesterday woke up couldn't remember shit but it was quite fun nonetheless 😄
 
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