technicallyAlive
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- Nov 29, 2023
- 49
I actually feel kinda better. Idrk where to start, but I changed homes and live with new awesome people now and i gradually verrrrry gradually stopped wanting to kill myself. i mean i woke up one day and realized that suicide wasn't immediately the first thing on my mind. and thankfully not the last thing i think about before bed anymore. :-)
Secondly, for christmas I was gifted a cat. I remember a while ago when I was nine or something my parents got me a dog since like any normal nine year old I wanted one, and (not having owned one previously) they got me one anyways and left me to care for it myself. My room always smelled like shit since the dog wasn't potty trained, and we lived in an apartment complex meaning he barked at neighbors whenever he got the chance causing us to get warnings from the landlord, and to top it off i genuinely forgot what i was gonna say. Anyways, I, my brother and our mom fled the state due to domestic violence to which he had to leave the dog behind and that was that.
I worried that my cat would go through the same fate, but thankfully I'm older and more mature now thus knowing how to care for an animal properly. Cat pic is probably attached if the image loads properly.
Psychology!! I have no intention of ever becoming a psychologist, but i do have every interest in the field! I zone out a lot when reading story books so i gave up on those types of books since i can never remember what was happening anyways, I decided to read books on psychology since in that way the stuff that i DO remember might benefit me somehow. I love reading to myself at night and then stretching right after.
Lastly, we are all doomed. I know a majority of us go through an existential crisis at the age of 8 after finding out that the sun will explode in 8 billion years. However! I read up on it late at night and could genuienly not fall asleep afterwards. maybe I am still an eight year old. however, i had an epiphany, that when the sun explodes nothing will matter. and if im scared of the sun exploding in eight billion years, imagine how i have even less time, with only maybe about 20-50 years left at this rate?? Which leads me to my next point!
Figure skating! I watched Alysa Liu's performances to see what all the hype was about and I've never been so enchanted before. I got into learning about more figure skaters, Johnny Weir is an icon, Isabeau Levito is Elsa in real life, Surya Bonaly's backflip was spectacular and I've never been so mesmerized in my life!! I'm not so scared of embarrassing or hurting myself on the ice, since the sun will one day erase everything.
However, with that said, I don't have the finances to try it out. Everything about the sport is holy shit soo expensive. I hope that, before I get too old, I can at least have the chance, to try figure skating. That before I die, I can look back and see the efforts I've made, instead of feeling regret that I didn't at the very least try. I only have one life and I don't want to spend it rotting away in bed like I have for the last six years of my life.
Rereading this makes me sound like an old woman granting the young folk her wisdom which i hope is not how i come off as loll
also i took the empathy quotient and scored a 28 genuinley how did i score so low am i seriously this unempathetic
Secondly, for christmas I was gifted a cat. I remember a while ago when I was nine or something my parents got me a dog since like any normal nine year old I wanted one, and (not having owned one previously) they got me one anyways and left me to care for it myself. My room always smelled like shit since the dog wasn't potty trained, and we lived in an apartment complex meaning he barked at neighbors whenever he got the chance causing us to get warnings from the landlord, and to top it off i genuinely forgot what i was gonna say. Anyways, I, my brother and our mom fled the state due to domestic violence to which he had to leave the dog behind and that was that.
I worried that my cat would go through the same fate, but thankfully I'm older and more mature now thus knowing how to care for an animal properly. Cat pic is probably attached if the image loads properly.
Psychology!! I have no intention of ever becoming a psychologist, but i do have every interest in the field! I zone out a lot when reading story books so i gave up on those types of books since i can never remember what was happening anyways, I decided to read books on psychology since in that way the stuff that i DO remember might benefit me somehow. I love reading to myself at night and then stretching right after.
Lastly, we are all doomed. I know a majority of us go through an existential crisis at the age of 8 after finding out that the sun will explode in 8 billion years. However! I read up on it late at night and could genuienly not fall asleep afterwards. maybe I am still an eight year old. however, i had an epiphany, that when the sun explodes nothing will matter. and if im scared of the sun exploding in eight billion years, imagine how i have even less time, with only maybe about 20-50 years left at this rate?? Which leads me to my next point!
Figure skating! I watched Alysa Liu's performances to see what all the hype was about and I've never been so enchanted before. I got into learning about more figure skaters, Johnny Weir is an icon, Isabeau Levito is Elsa in real life, Surya Bonaly's backflip was spectacular and I've never been so mesmerized in my life!! I'm not so scared of embarrassing or hurting myself on the ice, since the sun will one day erase everything.
However, with that said, I don't have the finances to try it out. Everything about the sport is holy shit soo expensive. I hope that, before I get too old, I can at least have the chance, to try figure skating. That before I die, I can look back and see the efforts I've made, instead of feeling regret that I didn't at the very least try. I only have one life and I don't want to spend it rotting away in bed like I have for the last six years of my life.
Rereading this makes me sound like an old woman granting the young folk her wisdom which i hope is not how i come off as loll
also i took the empathy quotient and scored a 28 genuinley how did i score so low am i seriously this unempathetic
