Too unsatisfied and depressed to chase dream career

[TiredOfWakingUp]

I feel pathetic and lazy by knowing I would pursue my career of starting a cannabis business, but I'd rather end myself because you need property and a business license. I just turned 21 but have no desire to work a entry level job and scrape by to earn enough money to start a business. I don't even have social problems, I just have no desire to have friendships or a girlfriend and feel unsatisfied with every sport, instrument, art, game, etc. I love how cannabis makes me feel, and enjoy food and traveling, but not enough to work for another 60 years to grow old and die. No career, no place, no food, no amount of sex or money seems worth living for. It all gets boring. I've had groups of friends, jobs, ive had girlfriends, the people, money and sex gets boring. Anyone else feeling extemely un-satisfied with the world and your life? Wish god would tell us why we're here, if one exists.