Method too scared to jump and worried about those who will miss me

[BFA]

i've had crippling loneliness my whole life and i've been trying to fight it. never been invited anywhere and consistently been the only one left out. like too many times and nobody ever knows or tells me why. anyway it's finally got to me and now i'm trying to convince myself to jump out of the window next to me. 2 problems described in the title. please help before this feeling ends and i become too scared and get back to my normal life. im just trying to stop 16 years of pain please.

is there some sort of less scary method that i can just instantly do and not be able to take it back? something i definitely will not survive. thanks in advance and let's hope i don't ever post again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't think that jumping is the best method unless it's somewhere very high. If the place isn't high enough then jumping could just lead to injuries. But if there was an easy accessible, straightforward and instant method that is reliable, then I doubt that this site would need to exist. Sadly such a thing is too good to be true in this anti-suicide society. Information about methods is listed in the suicide resource compilation but there are no easy answers, to me the methods are either risky, inaccessible or just so difficult to go through with/horrible. But anyway I wish you the best and I hope you find the freedom you search for.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

Spend some time on this forum and you will easily find some peaceful ways. It all boils down to if you are ready to do it, taking your own life is certainly not easy to do give it some time and thought.

 

[EmpathyMinded]

Respectfully, it sounds like you are feeling undecided with the worries about your family. If you are feeling indecisive, don't make that choice yet. You can decide to live longer and change your mind to CTB later, but you can't CTB and change your mind. This should be an informed choice and something you feel no hesitation about as a result. If you do need more time to decide, it doesn't make you weak at all. It's an important decision so you should give it all the thought you can. Wishing you the best.

 

[deadmanwalkin]

Really hard to overcome the SI with jumping unless you have balls of steel, if I could do it I wouldn't be typing this. If you have access to an isolated jumping spot u could get really drunk and that might overcome SI. Full suspension hanging is better, much easier to kick a chair then leap to ur death.