Venting too many options

[sadgirlallonherownn]

This is a really stupid vent but I currently have a bit of a unique problem I have too many ways to ctb, I got a busy railway and a busy roadway nearby, I have access to SN and multiple jumping spots, I have cornhole pillows and a ratchet for night night, I got shoelaces and managed to find my sweet spot for ligature and its honestly overwhelming, I have so many options that I do not know what I should do, I know that railway and roadway will be absolute last resorts bc I dont exactly want to traumatize the drivers or passengers or both but out of the other ones I just cant decide, its probably between SN and jumping but night night also seems nice, same for ligature so Im really uncertain, Im paralyzed in my decision making, it feels like the executive dysfunction I get from my adhd and idk what to do, I just know I wanna do it and wanted to do it for a long time, this feels so strange

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

This is a really stupid vent but I currently have a bit of a unique problem I have too many ways to ctb, I got a busy railway and a busy roadway nearby, I have access to SN and multiple jumping spots, I have cornhole pillows and a ratchet for night night, I got shoelaces and managed to find my sweet spot for ligature and its honestly overwhelming, I have so many options that I do not know what I should do, I know that railway and roadway will be absolute last resorts bc I dont exactly want to traumatize the drivers or passengers or both but out of the other ones I just cant decide, its probably between SN and jumping but night night also seems nice, same for ligature so Im really uncertain, Im paralyzed in my decision making, it feels like the executive dysfunction I get from my adhd and idk what to do, I just know I wanna do it and wanted to do it for a long time, this feels so strange

similar for me

I need to decide and do it

 

[sadgirlallonherownn]

similar for me

I need to decide and do it

Yea its a genuine struggle