Too lonley to keep going.

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I've been feeling very lonely recently and down on myself. I don't have a negative body image, even though I dont work about and am skinny I still like my body and face, but I'm just too much of a neurotic mess to be datable. I have had one girlfriend, we wet when we were 17 and ended up on and off for a while, then she suddenly left me for good my freshman year of college, during my first semi-manic episode. I don't blame her but I dont think ive really recovered, even though I don't miss her. I stopped flirting with girls since then, and I've only been with one other girl since, when she came onto me. I really liked her and she came over every day for a week, but I think she thought I was weird by the end and left. Everyone around me thinks I'm weird, and the only people who will hang out with me are childhood friends who ended up living in the same city as me. Even they treat me weird, and leave me out of important conversations and such. As much as I am lonley, I'm not an incel type, I don't blame girls for not liking me they can be into whatever they like, its just very hard sometimes being alone for so long in a row. I have trouble sleeping without fantasizing about someone there with me, as pathetic as that is.

 

[deletednumber]

I have trouble sleeping without fantasizing about someone there with me, as pathetic as that is.

If this is pathetic then i'm pathetic too...

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Bro you are 22. I had barely done anything with girls by that age. You literally have your entire (dating) life ahead of you. I understand feeling lonely though, and I had my first bad breakup freshman year of college too. You can't let it define you though, it's only the start. I hope you can find a way to try some more. If you are willing to work at it, there is a lot more fun waiting for you. And the fact you had a girl come onto you is a good sign. It probably means you're at least semi attractive. Don't throw in the towel just yet.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

Bro you are 22. I had barely done anything with girls by that age. You literally have your entire (dating) life ahead of you. I understand feeling lonely though, and I had my first bad breakup freshman year of college too. You can't let it define you though, it's only the start. I hope you can find a way to try some more. If you are willing to work at it, there is a lot more fun waiting for you. And the fact you had a girl come onto you is a good sign. It probably means you're at least semi attractive. Don't throw in the towel just yet.

I know that like on the paper its not really that bad and fairly normal, but for me it just feels so terrible. I'm afraid that because I don't know how to flirt and basically just wait until a girl flirts with me that im screwed. My college years are over and I think the time that that happens regularly is gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are in this situation. I know that loneliness can be painful for many people. I wish you the best.