Livingvsdying25
Enlightened
- Dec 8, 2019
- 1,188
Living here, just like with everywhere I have lived, is affecting my mental health negatively.
To have "support" so close but to feel so alone is negatively impacting me. Extremely.
Yeah, I am human and all but, interpersonal relationships and encounters aren't something I am interested in... At all...
I just feel horrible. Every moment I'm just thinking about killing myself while those around me just seem like another mood. I just want to be supported differently if I'm feeling suicidal.
I should know by now that that kinda help doesn't really exist.
I feel horrible and lonely and no tears coming even tho I feel like crying and I OBVIOUSLY don't feel like singing or anything.
Yes, I am getting by on the usual distractions but it isn't enough.
Could pick up some stimulants today but ??? It's far. The weather sucks and on top of it all, I don't much see how it's gonna make a difference. It's not the kind that I prefer. I'm just not into it honestly.
I have nothing and I really can't come up with anything.
To have "support" so close but to feel so alone is negatively impacting me. Extremely.
Yeah, I am human and all but, interpersonal relationships and encounters aren't something I am interested in... At all...
I just feel horrible. Every moment I'm just thinking about killing myself while those around me just seem like another mood. I just want to be supported differently if I'm feeling suicidal.
I should know by now that that kinda help doesn't really exist.
I feel horrible and lonely and no tears coming even tho I feel like crying and I OBVIOUSLY don't feel like singing or anything.
Yes, I am getting by on the usual distractions but it isn't enough.
Could pick up some stimulants today but ??? It's far. The weather sucks and on top of it all, I don't much see how it's gonna make a difference. It's not the kind that I prefer. I'm just not into it honestly.
I have nothing and I really can't come up with anything.
