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Oct 12, 2019
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I'll fall asleep with 30g SN tonight.
I do not have antiemetics, painkillers
For hours no one will find me
I'm afraid of how much pain I feel
 
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SuicidalSymphonies

SuicidalSymphonies

I think I'll take a dirt nap.
Oct 13, 2019
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If you ever want to talk, there are many open ears here. May you have a smooth trip with no pain if you are leaving tonight. Perhaps find a less painful option if you are worried? Why not grab some painkillers from your closest store before the ultimate decision? Much love... x
 
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DeathImminent

DeathImminent

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Aug 9, 2019
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I'll fall asleep with 30g SN tonight.
I do not have antiemetics, painkillers
For hours no one will find me
I'm afraid of how much pain I feel
I am sorry you are hurting so much but you will throw up 100% you better get your hands on meto
 
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throwaway1111

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Oct 9, 2019
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I wish you a peaceful and painless trip, stranger.
 
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noon

noon

tired
Sep 14, 2019
34
wishing you a very peaceful journey. ♥
 
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Stan

Stan

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Aug 29, 2019
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Wishing you peace
 
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Haku

Haku

Walking ThePathOfSorrow, destination Denebokshiri
Oct 12, 2019
270
I can understand how you must feel, I also plan on going the SN route, and without antisemitics as well, I tried finding a way to obtain them, but so far, it seems as impossible for me to obtain them as much as it is with N. I hear it helps if you use capsules, but then I also heard some people on hear say that it didnt really help to not get nausea. I still have a couple of months until my ctb date, but if I do not find a way to make the SN work without antisemitics, I might have to invent a way. I have thought about after I take my SN, to tape my mouth shut as best as I can, and when the vomiting starts, hoping because the exit is sealed, that the vomit just goes back down my throat, I know that sounds disgusting, but if I'm all out of options, I might have no choice bit to try it that way. I dont really know, I have been planning on ctb for an entire year, researched on this site like crazy, so I am kind of at a point of desperation to be able to ctb painlessly, so if I cant find a better way by September, doing the whole taping my mouth shut thing. But anyways, I hope that it works out for you, and that you have a peaceful and painless departure.
I can understand how you must feel, I also plan on going the SN route, and without antisemitics as well, I tried finding a way to obtain them, but so far, it seems as impossible for me to obtain them as much as it is with N. I hear it helps if you use capsules, but then I also heard some people on hear say that it didnt really help to not get nausea. I still have a couple of months until my ctb date, but if I do not find a way to make the SN work without antisemitics, I might have to invent a way. I have thought about after I take my SN, to tape my mouth shut as best as I can, and when the vomiting starts, hoping because the exit is sealed, that the vomit just goes back down my throat, I know that sounds disgusting, but if I'm all out of options, I might have no choice bit to try it that way. I dont really know, I have been planning on ctb for an entire year, researched on this site like crazy, so I am kind of at a point of desperation to be able to ctb painlessly, so if I cant find a better way by September, doing the whole taping my mouth shut thing. But anyways, I hope that it works out for you, and that you have a peaceful and painless departure.
And I just realized I said September, I meant to say December
 
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DeathImminent

DeathImminent

Experienced
Aug 9, 2019
203
I can understand how you must feel, I also plan on going the SN route, and without antisemitics as well, I tried finding a way to obtain them, but so far, it seems as impossible for me to obtain them as much as it is with N. I hear it helps if you use capsules, but then I also heard some people on hear say that it didnt really help to not get nausea. I still have a couple of months until my ctb date, but if I do not find a way to make the SN work without antisemitics, I might have to invent a way. I have thought about after I take my SN, to tape my mouth shut as best as I can, and when the vomiting starts, hoping because the exit is sealed, that the vomit just goes back down my throat, I know that sounds disgusting, but if I'm all out of options, I might have no choice bit to try it that way. I dont really know, I have been planning on ctb for an entire year, researched on this site like crazy, so I am kind of at a point of desperation to be able to ctb painlessly, so if I cant find a better way by September, doing the whole taping my mouth shut thing. But anyways, I hope that it works out for you, and that you have a peaceful and painless departure.

And I just realized I said September, I meant to say December
Dude dont do the thing with tape, you will start to choke on your own vomit
 
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Boochky

Boochky

Fat, bipolar, and hairy. (Sorry boys, I’m taken.)
Feb 23, 2019
334
Be well and travel safe dear heart. May you be received by angels.
 
Haku

Haku

Walking ThePathOfSorrow, destination Denebokshiri
Oct 12, 2019
270
Dude dont do the thing with tape, you will start to choke on your own vomit
Yea, kind of also thought about that, even thought about it coming out of my nose, but, if there is no other way to ctb with SN without antisemitics, then I am not sure what else to do. I barely became a member on here a few days ago, but before that, I was a lurker for 5 months, and originally I had planned to go the night night method route, I had practiced and practiced it every single day for 5 months, and the farthest I got was feeling pressure in my head, but in all those months, I never once passed out, so then that's when I started looking into the SN method, for a few weeks of doing so, I was still lurking, found some good information, but then when I found out it was going to be impossible for me to obtain the nausea meds, that's when I finally created an account and became a member, to hopefully be able to ask my questions and hopefully get the answer I'm seeking. But its possible that my bad luck will follow me to the death, and just screw everything up for me, so even though I'm trying to do things the right way to obtain a painless departure, in the end, I might not get it, that's why I kind of came up with the ridiculous idea of taping my mouth shut, even though realizing a bit after I came up with that half assed plan, that I might end up checking on my vomit. Sorry for the long reply
 
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DeathImminent

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Aug 9, 2019
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Yea, kind of also thought about that, even thought about it coming out of my nose, but, if there is no other way to ctb with SN without antisemitics, then I am not sure what else to do. I barely became a member on here a few days ago, but before that, I was a lurker for 5 months, and originally I had planned to go the night night method route, I had practiced and practiced it every single day for 5 months, and the farthest I got was feeling pressure in my head, but in all those months, I never once passed out, so then that's when I started looking into the SN method, for a few weeks of doing so, I was still lurking, found some good information, but then when I found out it was going to be impossible for me to obtain the nausea meds, that's when I finally created an account and became a member, to hopefully be able to ask my questions and hopefully get the answer I'm seeking. But its possible that my bad luck will follow me to the death, and just screw everything up for me, so even though I'm trying to do things the right way to obtain a painless departure, in the end, I might not get it, that's why I kind of came up with the ridiculous idea of taping my mouth shut, even though realizing a bit after I came up with that half assed plan, that I might end up checking on my vomit. Sorry for the long reply
I must ask why cant you obtain antiemetic? There are many ways...
Getting it from:
Your GP
Online stores like ebay or alldaychemist
Deep web
 
citysnowfall

citysnowfall

the leitmotif of a dead character
Oct 11, 2019
8
Good luck friend, I hope you find peace.
 
Haku

Haku

Walking ThePathOfSorrow, destination Denebokshiri
Oct 12, 2019
270
I must ask why cant you obtain antiemetic? There are many ways...
Getting it from:
Your GP
Online stores like ebay or alldaychemist
Deep web
Well, unfortunately my doctor is worthless, or hes just smart, they always have me do some kind of form that asks me if I'm suicidal, I lie and say no ofcourse, and I always try to act like I'm happy, sometimes I let my real face show itself by accident though, I never asked him for antisemitics, but I suffer from insomnia, and quite a few times I asked him if he can prescribe be some pretty strong sleep aid, I tell him I take 50mg of Unisom, witch is the strongest sleep aid you can get otc, and the prick tells me no, and I ask why, and he kind of changes the subject, and tells me hes going to prescribe me some otc hormone enhancer instead, as much as I wanted to tell the guy off, I just said ok, and got the hell out of there, so yeah, even though I lied on that form, I have a feeling my doctor assumed I was lying, so if the asshole didnt want to prescribe me strong sleep aid, I do not think I want to ask him if he could prescribe me meto. The websites you speak of, do they sell you meto and whatever else I need for SN without prescription? And are they trustworthy sites? I had heard people talking about them before, but never heard people say if they sell them to you under the table or if they also ask for a prescription. Plus, if I get all the stuff I need for the SN online, I do not have a credit/Debit card, and I was planning on buying the SN on Amazon with a prepaid Visa card. So yea, those are the problems I am currently stuck on, unless you give me some good news, and if you do, I will be eternally grateful to you.
 
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Raggas

Raggas

Suicide is self expression
Dec 31, 2018
306
I don't think there's any real pain with SN other than the freak reports.

Hope you have a peaceful journey. Farewell.
 
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Azzy69

Azzy69

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Aug 8, 2019
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Wishing you safe travels. We will all miss you. Goodbye friend.
 
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Foster13

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Oct 24, 2019
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I'll fall asleep with 30g SN tonight.
I do not have antiemetics, painkillers
For hours no one will find me
I'm afraid of how much pain I feel


It looks like you still here?? Last activity today. It didn't work or you didn't take it?
 
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