Covalite
Anxiety Controls All
- Apr 4, 2023
- 102
So I don't know how I'm going to handle tomorrow. Things have been in repetitive yet downward spiral in my life for a long time now. I don't have a means to ctb tommorow but i wish I did. I just cant take the pressure of being alone and constantly doing the same thing no matter how much I try my a** off to change it. I just wanna vanish not that any one would notice. I just dont wana be alone any more i just want someone comfort me. Also one the biggest reasons i haven't ctb is fear of dying alone. Thats also why i have often attempted in public spaces vs alone in my tiny apartment. I just want some words of engorgement to let me know I'm not alone and im not a complete waste of oxygen. Also sorry this is also kinda venting but i do need some help and kind words so i can at least get out of bed tomorrow to feed my fish. (Edit was changing it to venting and fixing typos.)