I've made it to our hotel and my ctb partner is getting some stuff together and is headed here shortly. I guess I'll start the goodbye thread. Tomorrow evening at 7 is when we are drinking the sn. I'll post on this thread when we are about to drink it but will probably log off after. I'm scared shitless that I'm going to fail but we are going step by step from the protocol so it should work out. Hopefully my husband forgives me. As always thank you to everyone on here for your support. It's been a long road up to this point. I tried to hold out for any hope but now motivation is completely gone. I'm set on this decision and this is what I want and my ctb partner is as well. We both are ready to get it done and over with. Wish us luck and any positive thoughts are appreciated.
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almostoutofhere
Living in the past
- Dec 27, 2022
- 163
Good luck, hopefully everything goes as you wish
sincerelysad
bpd . chronic pain . ptsd . pls be kind <3
- Jan 4, 2023
- 158
all the best! you won't regret the decision after you took it and all the endless thinking about the situation..I hope it's a smooth transition for you and your partner. Love and Peace. xoI'm terrified I'm going to wake up after passing out
Fulminare
Read Thomas Szasz!
- Feb 20, 2022
- 227
I honestly envy you both so much. It's so rare to find a partner that is actually serious about pulling through. I wish you all the best, please take care and be there for each other!
stilhavinightmares
Warlock
- Oct 13, 2022
- 759
Wishing for the most peaceful transition for you and your partner, and peace to your husband and family.
You will be so missed by so many.
We have been texting back and forth the past several weeks so we can help each other get through until today. We are having a final meal tonight and then fasting starts. Planning on going for a walk tomorrow before we start our prep of the sn.
stilhavinightmares
Warlock
- Oct 13, 2022
- 759
Haven't decided yet. I'm waiting for my ctb partner to get here and we are going to have something delivered. I want Mexican… lol
We found each other on here through the partners thread. We talked on here for a little while and then started texting. He has the meds and I have the sn so we are joining forces
stilhavinightmares
Warlock
- Oct 13, 2022
- 759
Mmmm Mexican…Something with tons of cheese sounds amazing, or at least that's what I would pickHaven't decided yet. I'm waiting for my ctb partner to get here and we are going to have something delivered. I want Mexican… lol
We found each other on here through the partners thread. We talked on here for a little while and then started texting. He has the meds and I have the sn so we are joining forces
Yes! Yummy..lol. I just have to be careful to make sure my stomach doesn't get upset or anything.. lolMmmm Mexican…Something with tons of cheese sounds amazing, or at least that's what I would pick
I am too. I'm scared of other things happening or not happening too. I hope I get over it by this spring when I plan to ctb. I can't do it now because I have to wait until the weather warms up so I can do it outside. I don't think the fears are anything you get over really. Probably just something you have to push through. xoxox
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 46,751
Farewell, I envy you, you are fortunate to be leaving this awful world. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.
Dead Meat
DOOMED
- Oct 10, 2018
- 18,394
Wishing you all the best @Idontmatter for a very comfortable and pleasant journey, and may you find everlasting peace and tranquility you Beautiful Soul
stilhavinightmares
Warlock
- Oct 13, 2022
- 759
GasMonkey
Nitrogen Master Race
- May 15, 2022
- 1,878
stilhavinightmares
Warlock
- Oct 13, 2022
- 759
Yes!!! I hope you both enjoyed. I cannot imagine how you feel right now. Thank goodness you have your partner and you are keeping each other company while waiting!It did end up being Mexican food. Now I just have to calm my nerves.. lol
If you don't mind me asking, where does your husband think you are currently?
He thinks I'm on a trip for work. I feel so guilty for lying to him. He will be devastated when he gets the call about me. Hopefully he will understand
Miss Anthropy
....and the sky turned black
- Dec 28, 2022
- 58
Today is the day and I'm nervous. Also hungry.. lol. Tonight must work. I'll take seroquel later today before drinking sn since it makes me sleepy. My ctb partner is still sleeping. Once he gets up we can prepare stuff for tonight. Sorry if I ramble.. I ramble when I'm nervous. I'm ready to lay in bed and go to sleep forever. I want to eat but can't. It's crazy to know that these are my last hours alive. Once 7pm hits the sn will be drank and it will be all over.
Don't worry about rambling. We're all right here willing to listen to anything you have to say.
Thinking of you, ramble if it helps, but you've nothing to apologise for.
Do you mind if I ask if you're taking any other meds, or just seroquel then sn?
We feel honored that you choose to include us in your final hours and hope we can be of some help or comfort to you through the process. I'm sure it seems scary but it seems you are assured of the outcome you desire as you have done everything right. Do keep us posted. Hugs and love to you. xoxoxoxo
My ctb partner has an ae, I forget which one. He has some Oxy as well. He has the protocol steps written down so we can follow it. Hell, I'm already sleepy. Lol
I'll probably post throughout the day to keep my nerves calm. We have to get some small things we still need. Once my ctb partner wakes up we can go from there.Similar threads
