setianism

setianism

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Sep 15, 2018
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I've been wishing to be completely alone for months and today it will be just me for 3 hours before anyone notices, far more than I need to hang myself. This is my first serious, not half-assed attempt and hopefully my last one too. Weird enough I don't feel sad or happy I just have that gut feeling when you know you have to do something. So yeah wish me luck guys

I've been here only for a week but you guys seem to be one of the kindest and most understanding people I've ever met. I hope each of you will sort things out, be it recovery or a peaceful exit
 
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IfHeDiesHeDies

IfHeDiesHeDies

Specialist
Sep 12, 2018
383
I wish you a quick and peaceful exit. all the best
 
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Desperate_Soul

Desperate_Soul

I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
Aug 26, 2018
1,980
I think you're experiencing the calmness that I also found when I attempted. Congratulations! :)
I wish you luck, strength, and courage to guide you through CTB.
I hope all goes as planned and that you have a peaceful journey.
 
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LibertyRevolutionary

LibertyRevolutionary

Breaking the chains of life one at a time
Sep 20, 2018
32
Good luck and have a nice trip!
 
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throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,446
Thank you, I hope you find peace. Good luck!
 
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Miss clefable

Enlightened
Aug 23, 2018
1,577
Hugs if your going with my method there's no turning back just be careful and may you find peace
 
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ThisIsTheEnd

ThisIsTheEnd

Waste of oxygen
Aug 22, 2018
90
Good luck, man. Hope you find peace.
 
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Lunar

Lunar

Student
Aug 14, 2018
188
Good luck to you and thank you.
 
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MistakesHappen

Escapologist
Aug 29, 2018
615
I admire your courage, goodbye and good luck
 
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s_girl

s_girl

Still here?
Sep 13, 2018
191
Vale friend. I wish you peace in whatever you choose to do.
 
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Anyara

Anyara

Nothing is true, everything is permitted
Sep 6, 2018
125
Good luck l. I wish you a peaceful journey
 
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wagram

Member
Sep 16, 2018
20
Godspeed. May you find peace my friend.
 
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Nlnp2

Student
Sep 22, 2018
103
Odihnește-te în pace (dacă ai reușit).
 
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SamK

SamK

Cloud Surfing
Aug 21, 2018
280
<3 sending love and peace. I usually type out a lot but you know what, i have nothing to say other than ''i understand with all my heart''. I'm sorry it came to this for you. I second all the comments above. Will be thinking of you today,Sam
 
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setianism

setianism

Member
Sep 15, 2018
72
Well I'm still stuck here for now at at least

Long story short my step sister has a key of my family's apartment, she comes to visit us regularly when she needs money, saw me hanging but still being semi conscious (was hanging for about 3 minutes though but couldn't black out), lifted me (half of me was laying down) and then I begged her not to take me to hospital to which she agreed since she can't stand my presence. Now I've got big scars on my neck that I'll have to explain and I feel like absolute shit and an attention seeker
 
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Desperate_Soul

Desperate_Soul

I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
Aug 26, 2018
1,980
Well I'm still stuck here for now at at least

Long story short my step sister has a key of my family's apartment, she comes to visit us regularly when she needs money, saw me hanging but still being semi conscious (was hanging for about 3 minutes though but couldn't black out), lifted me (half of me was laying down) and then I begged her not to take me to hospital to which she agreed since she can't stand my presence. Now I've got big scars on my neck that I'll have to explain and I feel like absolute shit and an attention seeker

Where did you do it?
 
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Desperate_Soul

Desperate_Soul

I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
Aug 26, 2018
1,980
Welcome back.
 
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Nofaith

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Sep 16, 2018
343
And your sister goes into your room often?
Some homes have an open door policy regarding bedrooms.

Well I'm still stuck here for now at at least

Long story short my step sister has a key of my family's apartment, she comes to visit us regularly when she needs money, saw me hanging but still being semi conscious (was hanging for about 3 minutes though but couldn't black out), lifted me (half of me was laying down) and then I begged her not to take me to hospital to which she agreed since she can't stand my presence. Now I've got big scars on my neck that I'll have to explain and I feel like absolute shit and an attention seeker

You'll have to put up for us for a little while longer.

You know it's been mentioned before about people coming back after a failed attempt. And there is nothing wrong with returning. You might feel embarrassed, but things don't always go according plan. That's why most of us are here in the first place because shit didn't work out. It happens.

You stick around here for however long you want/need.
 
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Nlnp2

Student
Sep 22, 2018
103
credeam ca te-ai sinucis sau ceva
Daca te face sa te simti mai bine, si eu am esuat o spanzurare (am ramas fara constiinta pentru vreo 3 minute, dar nu m-ar surprinde daca as fi ramas chiar mai mult) si nu am avut leziuni cerebrale. Prin iarna o sa ma sinucid eu.
 
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Desperate_Soul

Desperate_Soul

I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
Aug 26, 2018
1,980
Some homes have an open door policy regarding bedrooms.
.

Yeah, I'm aware. I thought about that, but I didn't want to further the conversation more than necessary.
 
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itsallover

Arcanist
Jun 29, 2018
478
Daca te face sa te simti mai bine, si eu am esuat o spanzurare (am ramas fara constiinta pentru vreo 3 minute, dar nu m-ar surprinde daca as fi ramas chiar mai mult) si nu am avut leziuni cerebrale. Prin iarna o sa ma sinucid eu.
Good luck. I am going to be forced to ctb in the next few days too. Everyone has completely given up on me and pretty much left me for dead. I hope you finally find peace. Many of us weren't made for this cruel unforgiving world.
 
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Nlnp2

Student
Sep 22, 2018
103
Good luck. I am going to be forced to ctb in the next few days too. Everyone has completely given up on me and pretty much left me for dead. I hope you finally find peace. Many of us weren't made for this cruel unforgiving world.
Thanks, but I still have months to live assuming I don't pussy out on New year's eve. (10 shots of vodka should help for that)
 
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setianism

setianism

Member
Sep 15, 2018
72
Some homes have an open door policy regarding bedrooms.



You'll have to put up for us for a little while longer.

You know it's been mentioned before about people coming back after a failed attempt. And there is nothing wrong with returning. You might feel embarrassed, but things don't always go according plan. That's why most of us are here in the first place because shit didn't work out. It happens.

You stick around here for however long you want/need.
That's so kind of you thank you
 
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setianism

setianism

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Sep 15, 2018
72
Daca te face sa te simti mai bine, si eu am esuat o spanzurare (am ramas fara constiinta pentru vreo 3 minute, dar nu m-ar surprinde daca as fi ramas chiar mai mult) si nu am avut leziuni cerebrale. Prin iarna o sa ma sinucid eu.
Da same sigur ca o sa mai incerc ceva in urmatoarele luni dar in octombrie ma intalnesc cu prietenul meu si deci o sa aman
 
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Lara Francis

Lara Francis

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,627
I've been wishing to be completely alone for months and today it will be just me for 3 hours before anyone notices, far more than I need to hang myself. This is my first serious, not half-assed attempt and hopefully my last one too. Weird enough I don't feel sad or happy I just have that gut feeling when you know you have to do something. So yeah wish me luck guys

I've been here only for a week but you guys seem to be one of the kindest and most understanding people I've ever met. I hope each of you will sort things out, be it recovery or a peaceful exit
Welcome back.you are not an attention seeker but just had a failed attempt.
many of us have had them.
I wish you peace and a smooth exit if you wish to ctb in the future x
 
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