Today's the day~

[Moon Flower]

Today my s/o and I are headed to a neighboring beachside city for a rave he's going to. He's also gonna be an event manager for a community meetup prior which should leave me with approx 8-10 hours alone in a hotel room. I have both sn/antacid/antipsychotic for antiemetic and rope so I'm not entirely sure if I'm gonna go with hanging or sn yet. Whatever I do, I'll be doing it by about 8pm est. I'll probably livepost if I go with sn although I have low blood pressure so I'm not sure how long I'll retain consciousness.
I'm feeling a little guilty though, last night my s/o was talking to me excitedly about his concert and how we're gonna have a nice date before it and he gave me a big hug and said "things are finally going right for once" . I absolutely know I'm going to break this boy's heart and I kind of hate it, but I've wanted this for way too long to back out now. He's at least gotten better at the "what do you want done when we die" talk since I've started my plan. He's gone from "Oh we're gonna be immortal in our lifetime so we'll never have to worry about it" to "when you die I'm gonna just yeet you into a hole in the backyard" in just a few short days so I'm hoping he won't be too crushed.

 

[passenger27]

I wish you luck whichever direction you decide to go lunarpoppies. Hope things work out for you.

 

[noctiva]

Hei lunarpoppies, I've been lurking for a long time and I've followed your posts in the last weeks, your note to your partner is beautiful and the compassion and consideration for those you're leaving behind is amazing. You sound like a lovely and genuine soul and you have, from what I've gathered, prepared incredibly well. I wish you nothing but the very best and hope that you will find what you are looking for.

 

[Nikoson]

Good luck, I'm just waiting on my SN to arrive then I'll be going

 

[Stan]

I wish you luck, can I make one thought which I think will cause a flame up so I am prepared for it. Why are you doing it at this time and location whilst you are far from home? Your s/o will be in major distress and not have people close to him to support him.

 

[Moon Flower]

I wish you luck, can I make one thought which I think will cause a flame up so I am prepared for it. Why are you doing it at this time and location whilst you are far from home? Your s/o will be in major distress and not have people close to him to support him.

Yeah I'm worried about that too. There's very little privacy where we live so this is really my only shot to be honest. I can't really go out by myself without arousing suspicion because it's very out of character for me

 

[trynacbt]

Good luck, I imagine this requires so much courage. I wish you and your s/o the very best. It will take a long, long time, but I believe he will find peace again.

 

[WhiteDespair]

Best wishes! Safe travels however you decide.

 

[blueming]

Good luck and safe travels! I hope you find peace and I also wish the best for your s/o ^^

 

[Neverod]

I'm happy to hear that, really wish you will be able to do what you want to, and success. Will miss you.

 

[Lotus1818]

Wow good luck Lunar i will read through your note if i cant find it. I wish you the best.

 

[LastWhisper]

Good luck! I hope you succeed.

 

[SteezPromo]

I wish you all the best.

 

[Jean4]

Sending you love. I am est, and will pop by to be with you. You won't be alone.

 

[sullengirl]

Sending you resolve and strength. Peaceful and safe journeys, friend.

 

[Return2Dust]

Wishing you a peaceful journey, friend.

 

[Moon Flower]

Aaaaa you're all so wonderful and nice, gonna be looking forward to seeing you guys at our own community meetup in the hereafter <3

 

[I screwed up]

Wishing u all the luck and hope u get all the peace u deserve. Wht ever happens we will be here for u. Rip good friend

 

[Bombasflower]

I will think about you, even if we do not know each other.
I wish you all the best, and hope that you'll pass peacefully.

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace

 

[okaoki]

i wish you a smooth exit

 

[Kaiten Ryu]

Safe travels my friend, may you find peace in eternity.

 

[frees]

Will be thinking of you

 

[Dystopia]

Sorry it's come to this for you; I hope the pain for both of you fades away quickly. These threads get harder to reply to for me but I love how you're so thoughtful about it all.

 

[Moon Flower]

You guys I'm a fucking idiot I forgot my scale. Any idea how much 15g might be?

 

[overandout]

Fallen leaf said:
Just received SN and measured it out 1 tablespoon = 23g

Have you measured using a normal tablespoon? and if so, how many grams was given in just one normal tablespoon

Just found this from researching a little. Use search term tablespoon and see what everyone else says on here...

 

[Kingkelly]

God I wish I could go now....I am so close. Ugh method ready and all. Make sure this is what you really want. Wish we could all go together.

 

[Nikoson]

Well hopefully everything is going to plan for you.
My SN hasn't turned up yet, which is a shame because today would have been fine by me. It has however enabled me to write some honest emails to some loved ones, which I will schedule to send well after the event. I will go as soon as I get the SN so hopefully next week. I will create a post with details on the day.

 

[LonelyLight]

All the best of luck with your plans friend I hope your right about that meetup in the next place, see you there

 

[takeyourshotfunboy]

Goodbye. I will miss you when you´re gone. Even though this is a forum dedicated to suicide and I should be prepared for these things to happen, it still makes me sad to have a friend, even an online one, CTB.